Hurt
I move away
But not just away
Away..away
So far away you will never find me
So far away I can only pack for one trip
I am thinking of moving away..AWAY away
So I do not see you with another
So I do not feel the hurt
I will move away..away away

There is no subject for which I can even whisper
Without your anger spilling out in a shout about any thing
You have no self control, you seeth- over a ******* remote control
Ordering a pizza is enough to make you very angry
No single thing brings you joy that I can tell
And I have been looking for a dozen years
All I get is anger so I hide, i hide
I cannot sit in the rocking chair or it will squeek and **** you off
So I hide, i hide.
Unable to simply sit in a chair in your presence..I hide
I breath- You **** on my sighs and ask why I breath
so I must HIDE..I hide
I cannot sit, breath, talk...why>?<
This is not life, this is all a lie
I cannot be me around you
your too angry
I stay alive
because I hide..I HIDE

I have wings
I spread them often
Fluttering here and there
Living fully as I can
But I have no place to unfold
I have lost my cocoon
My safe place
The loving womb
Gone now
Grow up soon?
My place of gentle love has blown away
The wind changed and took it away
Now lost I struggle knowing
The place I felt so perfect
is gone
and my pain is showing

I took you to my favorite places so that you would know me.
What kind of prize is this at the end of the road?
You never took the time before to come with me
Until our story was ready to fold
So what kind of prize is this I am leaving you?
I do not know.
I will not be there if you go to find me
I will have a new home, and new places to roam
So what is it I have left you?
I hope that one day you will find peace within
I know you will feel lost and angrier than ever
Hopefully these places I have taken you will make you feel better
I could never bring you peace no matter what I said
That is part of the reason our relationship is dead
There is no going back, no remedy
But I wish you peace my love and in the end you will see
You could not grow or change with us still together
And with this change I hope you grow and feel again something..
Something besides anger
This anger of yours has made me run
There is no arguing with a black hole that is spun
There are no words that I have ever been able to say
To make anything better for you in any way
I am wasting my energy even trying
To stay any longer would to be a disgrace
We are not good for each other anymore
We must face it
It is the saddest thing ever you have to know
I cry endlessly and regret some of our choices
But you never connected, not even with our boy
That is more than I can handle that is why I left
But I still do not want to hurt you and that is why
I took you to my favorite places
So you have somewhere to go
When your feeling down and can't let go
Any feelings but anger and stress..I am so sorry
I love you
but your too big of a mess

Your lips
I stare at a lot
Not because your talking
But because I'd like to be stalking them with mine

It is good my dreams scream of passion!
That a new kiss never goes out of fashion
That a new way of life is always on the horizon
It is good my dreams are full of passion!

The future dances in my head
3 generations of ladies tending to the garden greens
We all wear fairy wings and sing
I see my future shiny and bright
With love surrounding me day & night
It is good my dreams are full of passion

I wake each day and pour some coffee
Then I sit here and write something hopefully worth a copy
I tell how I feel in my morning prose
It makes me feel great to let the words flow
I wake up full of creativity head to toes
It is good I live like my dreams full of passion

If we would have kissed would I feel so distant?
If we would have kissed would I be hurt?
Would I have lost more?
Yes
If we would have kissed this would be a very different story
Yet
You enter my dreams and haunt me
Like no other
It makes me wonder how different things would be
If we had kissed
I cannot shake this feeling
Things would be very different if we had kissed
I cannot imagine all that we now have missed
Paths already taken, and that which we still walk within the mist
If we had kissed things would be so different
Maybe waiting shows some strength
Dedication to doing what is right so we do not sink
Timing is off but the lips are right!
I really wanted to kiss you
But not tonight
; )