I'm afraid to be alone.
I'm afraid to be forgotten.
I'm afraid to let you in.
Because my trust is rotten.

I'm afraid I want you here.
I'm afraid I hope you'll stay.
I'm afraid to open up.
Because I know you'll go away.

I'm afraid I'm already hurt.
I'm afraid I did this to myself.
I'm afraid no one will ever stay.
Because all I seem to do is repel.

I'm afraid to ask how you feel.
I'm afraid that I already know.
I'm afraid I don't mean much.
So I guess I'll let you go.

Please don't worry when I'm alone
But please remember my name.
I hope you enjoyed your stay.
I'm afraid I knew you'd leave from the first day.

My body wants to get up and move,
but my mind says no.

It's 2 am and my body wants to rest,
but my mind says no.

The wires connecting one another
need to be fixed.

But which one do I touch?
The red or the blue?

-*KM

this is me,
leaving you.
not because
i do not love you,
but because
i love myself,
too.

it wasn't until i wanted to fix someone else that i realised i was broken.

how many times can I write about the same thing?
how many ******* times can I keep writing about you?

I dangled my feet
Over the edge of uncertainty
And his words floated into my head:
"You are as big and as strong
As you want to be."

I slowly
Edged my way off.

The voices
          In my head
                    Aren't always
                              The best company