She kept her walls up for so long, she forgot what a door was.

whispers of Lightning wake me from the resented slumber
once again do i fail to captivate
still, i cling to the reality of an illuminating rain
that will move me through the Love that is mighty to say-
"Eternity is at My hand,"
&, "come now, my Bride."
He breathes, all melts away.

Am i just deluding myself?
Every touch, every moment we spent,
Was it all just a lie?
I hate you for doing this to me,
This feeling of love
It just won't go away,
No matter how many times i tried
It always finds its way back.
I hate this emotion
And i hate you for this,
But i always end up loving you.
Every mistake and every imperfection,
It all flies away when i look into your eyes.
Those eyes that keep me from drowning
From all the things that are weighing me down.
You were my light,
My home,
My god,
You were everything to me.
You painted colors to my monochrome world,
Opening my eyes to see the beauty within.
But it all fell apart when you left me alone,
Stranded in this world of black and white.
I will always hate you,
But i will never stop loving you.

you were the one that taught me that people never change

no matter how many years you give them and how often the setting changes and how many new people they've met

people never change.

you broke my heart and you kept on doing it and I realized

I will never change

I'll keep loving you.

I will never change.

It's been a few years,
since I picked up that blade
determined to slice the sadness
out of my viens.
Ridges and indentions
of scar tissue
litter my body.
Yet, even now,
when I get really down,
I still want to add to my collection.
I am starkly aware
that it's not right,
not at all; but,
nothing else works quite as well.
Besides...
perhaps it's a punishment, too.
One that I deserve.


(d.d.b)