It is cold tonight,
But that's alright.
Leftover winter air
Rushes through my open window ,
And coils of my heat
Languidly rise to the stars
Obscured by city air, true;
But still sitting undisturbed
Far, far away from this night.
This night that takes my warmth.

At 2 am broken thoughts
Seeped out of my skin and soaked the bedsheets
At 1 am writing diary entries
Because happy things happened and
Forgetting sadness requires remembering happiness
At 12 am on the computer
Wasting away life for a lack of motivation,
Becoming motivated,
And then self loathing for wasting life
At 11 pm drawing a picture
(Because someone else wanted it)

The things i really want
They are scattered in between the carpet
And peel and tear at my feet when i walk across it
At 2 am im a broken thought

Sinking is simple.
Drowning is easy.
Rowing is hard.

Climbing into the boat -
that's kind of tricky,
especially when the wind is trying to convince you to swim instead.

Floating is a breeze;
you just need something to give you buoyancy,
but you'll never get anywhere that way,
and sharks are waiting underneath.

Sailing is difficult.
Navigating is complicated.
I just want to find an island
where my mind won't be confiscated.

Pirates are everywhere;
taxing and taking,
pillaging and breeding spawn who will grow up
feeding a corrupted captain whose name remains unknown.

I just want to find an island.
I just want a place to call my own.

Everybody tells me that falling is scary
That in going down it gets blurry
I was so terrified of meeting you
Because I realized it was true

Whenever you smile, I fall down
Every time our eyes meet, it changes my frown
I am happy that I am falling
Because that's also where I am flying

I hear voices
Not voices from my head
But voices from memories
It brings the past back into my head
It shows the old me
The me I want to be

Through grave stones
and coffins. Through
darkness and lost souls.

I'll find a way to crawl to you.
And rest my tired bones over
yours.

Before time turns us to
stardust like the kind
astronauts found
on planet Mars.

Before time turns
us to stardust
and we'll no
longer have
our arms* ~