I won’t be alone; I’ll just hold my own hand.
Scared
Anxious
But not alone.
I’ll be there to pat myself on the back and say “I’m proud of you for being strong”

Many won’t know what pain my tomorrow may consist of.  Most won’t care.
Meanwhile my heart is a thousand miles away, seeking pleasure in a new and exciting place.

And so it seems, my heart won’t even remember what day it is tomorrow.

But none of that matters, for I am here.
I will be there to hold my own hand.
I will be there to feel the pain.
I will be there to tell myself to forget.

I, and only I will be there tomorrow.
A room full of strangers may try to soothe me.
But I, only I will be there tomorrow.

I dreamt we were heavily medicated in the middle of a lake
A rickety wooden canoe swaying slightly
As the wind sent ripples through that massive lake
The sun had gone down and the stars were our only company
Your eyes were focused, dark and lovely staring into mine
They spoke to me words I promised to never utter again
Then as my soul caught flame in those burning eyes
I saw your lips move but I was fading out….
There was only silence as the horizon disappeared
And the water began to move unnaturally
                                 Crack
Something was happening
But all I could see was those lovely eyes

Wipe that powder off your nose
And keep killing those boys
With your poisonous emerald eyes
And those venomous blood red lips

Don’t let your nose bleed again
It might give you away
Rich girls don’t cry, remember?
Here doll take some of my Xanax

Drape yourself in luxury
Go buy yourself some diamonds dear,
Go get mama’s ****** refilled will ya?
Stop that frowning, you’ll get wrinkles!

You better marry that man
He's perfect for you, just look at that ring!
Aw my girl's growing up, her first botox appointment!
Don't worry honey, pretty girls are happy girls.

we’ll destroy ourselves
for a feeling
of being completely disconnected
from all of you
from ourselves
we fear you we fear ourselves
our reflections spit hate
haunting us
nightmares of that same face
and running
and ourselves
you are we are
what we’re running from
and we’ll destroy ourselves for a moment
to get away from disasters
mishaps, misfortunes
evils
damage in doses
our restlessness
insomniacs in love
with destroying ourselves
we’re running we’re hiding
as long as we can forget for just a moment
just give me that moment
and all will be well
take me softly  destroy me slowly