Earth unprepared
To repair
What demand
Leaves its wishing well
Wistfulness
Weeping wastelands

What in the world’s
Going on out there
Barely
Prepared anymore
For the others
Are wary
So scared that I might
Say a word or two
On
The Koran,
Or Iran,
Or the Fall of Saigon
In its latest rendition
Of terror campaign
Like domestic disquieted
Capitol gain
The non-violence’s silent
Night shades of methane
Grown at home
And exporting
Its virulent strain
Of nefarious variants
Kids of all ages
In cages,
Their truth is
What say
Facebook pages

No industrious,
Sedulous
Worker ant slaving
I just deride hive-minded
Throngs and mobs
Paving
The way
For a more supreme order
Since discontent rules
And the truth’s
A reporter’s
Opinion
Dominion
Still supersedes fact
What is that?
But I know
What you don’t,
And that’s that

We had beaches
And cities
And mountains
Ashore
We had more
Then we ever grew up with
In store
And we even had time
Time to talk to each other
And rare as a find
As it is
To discover
A newfound renewal
Of cordless connection
Without the conflicted
Discourse
Disaffection
Divorced from reality
Back to the dream
Temporarily
Merrily
Tasting cuisine
Could all seem
To be needed
Yet that’s what we lacked  
But still shells in the sand
Keep the family intact

One more thank you
For my students
Who go through this
Education
Pull back curtains
Food desertion
Breaking fast
Their concentration
On the nation
That has raised them
From monopolistic sources
Through abortion
And extortion
Disproportionate  
Divorces
Overwhelming force
Endorsed
Too often
Book reports
Exams
And coffins
Bullets
Barrels
Only blossom
Learning from
Collective trauma
Teenage angst-enlivened
Drama

Lately it seems like
My ocean is broken
Like waves crashing into me
Enter
My entity
Now
The sea sounds
A faint echo
Of memory
Even its
Tempest temptress
Was serenity
Bottled up notes
That I wrote in
Sincerity
Never made landfall
Or fell for a lover
That swept me away
Like the depths I discovered
Whenever I would
Stand before it enthralled
By its roaring enormity’s
Beckoning call
To return to its sirens,
Poseidon’s
Leviathans
All of its mythical
Mysteries
Mine again
From the pen flowing
My deepest blues muse
On a tropical cruise
To the soothsayer tune
Of the lullaby moon
But the dunes have surrounded me
Shipwreck rocks pounded me
Anchors weighed down
To abysses
Confounded me
Bound to this heartbroken
Ocean
Still drowning me

The Persian incursion
The Chinese disease
The Russian invasion
American dreams
But it’s greed
Begets all
Of the conflict
We crave
Underscores
All the wars
We so minimum
Wage
Even what we complain
About
Just a contrivance
The unspoken
Token
Vote
Chokehold
Of tyrants
So long as the piracy,
Plunder
And spoils
Persist
Unabated
Enriching the royals
Then trust we shall vanquish
The bogeyman villainy
Scapegoating pillory
Only when at their
Expense
The artillery

Feels like there’s almost
No road left to go
But much further along it
She’s out there, I know
And though doubtful
Convinced
That persisting at this
Will eventually see me
Back there in her midst
Or at best
Wishing wistfully
Wilting will cease
And some semblance of blooming
Vitality peace
Will release me,
Return me
Into the empyrean
Fearing no more
Like a free at last Syrian

How would I conclude
How it all comes to ruin
What numinous
Unities
Herd the immune  
To communing
With singular focus
Attuning
To radio frequencies
Secretly
Beaming
Subliminal
Messengers’
Meddlesome
Scheming
With such
Efficacious
Outreaching
Embraces
From nations
And races
To homeostasis
And placing their faith
In the edifice gifted
The natural state shifts
From resist
To submissive

Slither and writhe
Selflessness
Just contrived
From a selfish
Revolves around me
Sort of mind

Acknowledge
Confront it
Then bare its hide
Vanquished
Showcase
Its disgrace
And deliver its anguish
Unto
Any would be
Assailants
Make safe
Its estate
With a state
Of surveillance
Invest in its fear
Appears deep
Insincere
And then watch as
Its dissidents  
All disappear
By enabling
Its boastful,
Accomplished
Facade
Like the dread of death
Feels itself
Closer to God

In a ruinous,
Gloom,
Luminescence  
I bask
In an inner-pax
Casket
Upholding the task
Of an Atlas’
Grasp
As it tilts
On an axis
Of evil
Bad habits
Amassing
Misfortune’s
Still backed
By the taxing
Of hapless
Trap houses
Still buried beneath
Crushing bones
Of Damascus’
Null and void
Vast blacknesses
I inhabit
In practiced,
Yet actively
Masked in
A passive
Lugubrious
Moods
I exude
And allude to
Discretely  
In secret
Dark sides
Of my lunacy
Thesis

Mistaken for an older
Colder
Closer to
Collapsing over
Almost over
Final chapter
Epilogue’s
Not coming after
Nor the sequel
Just forget it
Savor desperation
Let it
Push you to the brink
Of sink
And make your alter-ego
Shrink
Relinquishing the hero’s tale
Accept that by the end you failed
To draw your perfect dreams
To scale

I like it here
The quiet life
Appeals to me,
Reduces strife
And might just be
A place for me
To stay,
Remain,
Not run away
This time,
Just settle in
Refrain
From feigning
How it all goes wrong
The longer I still write this song
Is little more
Than wishful thinking
Lacking acumen
Or skill
No instrumental
State instilled
I simply try to make it sound
As pleasant to the ear
Is bound
In hearing
Not quite listening
As actively
As whispering
In darkness to yourself
At night
And then from nothing
Something write

She’d have to be
Close to
Perfection
To settle
The subtle,
Befuddling,
Fluttering
Stutter
All cluttered
In shortness of words
That I struggle
To utter
Some other subconsciousness
Unbeknownst lover
Discovered at just the right
Least expect moment
I let down my guard
And on her
Only focus
Like when
The end-seeking
What you never find
Enters into your life
Like a chill  
Down the spine
She would have to be into
My mind
But not mine
Wouldn’t want her submission
Just someone to listen
And kiss me
For simply
Existing
Sometimes

Until suns rising over
Eternity
Beckon
Inclined will I be
To advise
Its progression
To oversee yield
Without chain gangs afield
Without hangman’s
Majority
Whiplash to wield
And devoid of its
Noblest hypocrisy
Gaining
At others’ expense
Do their coffers containing
Your brains
Keep expunging and plunging
Them
Clogging your drains
From domain names
Of new world
Disorder
In veins
As it even now profits
More off
Your remains

Nights like this
I’m with you
Still I miss you
Far away
The only one
Who lifts me up
And then adorns my days
In gray
And though we stray
Returning solely
To the city lights
Surrounding
All around us
Haven’t found us
Permanence
A place to stay

How many times do I have to say it
Your very first breath
Was a form
Of enslavement  
Not to me
Certainly
Who would do that?
You of course
Don’t submit
To some other guy’s
Chat
Just my splat
Not again
It was sooner
Dependent
On any first girl
In the clime
Who was willing
To aid
In the world order crime
And unto has bade
The injustice of mine

Am I just
The next transgression
Never learn my lesson
Stressin’
Lonely graves
I must
Unrest in
Empty suits
I look my best in
Can’t befit
My corpse decay
As hollow as
The sky is gray
When half a world away
You flee
And no sunlight
Enlivens me
No sight
Nor taste
Illuminates
No scent
Nor touch
Intoxicates
It all just resonates
Despair
And melancholy
Everywhere

It’s not what defines me
This box that confines me
Resigned in acceptance
Complacency
Finds me
Remind me this was
What I did
Who I am
Is a kid
Growing up
To be more than a man
What I can do is write
In control of my thoughts
Not sit still for 8 hours
In nevermore sought
From this life that I lead
That I fail
To achieve
That I keep being me
And could anytime leave
But she keeps pulling back
Is the reason I stay
And the ease in which I
Come awake the next day

I once bloomed
In a room
Of my doom
Contemplating
Exhumed
From Necropolis
Insinuating
An afterlife
Merely goodnight
Perpetuity
Solely a blip
In the rift
Continuity
Needless to fear
Its finality fangs
Ever fruitless to reach for
The biggest of bangs

Forgive me I’m new to this
Form of survival
Each time I approach
I am dead on arrival
No reasoned and practical
Method
Successful
Attempts to be more
Than myself
Seem essential
In order to turn
Even hi
To goodbye
For eventually
Soon enough
You won’t reply

To some of you
Once a good man
At first glance
Or first happenstance
Chance
I might find you
Entranced
But the rants
And the rancid
Cantankerous
Raving
Is lunacy
Set to default’s
Isolating
Increasingly fringe
Foreign take
On the issue
That leaves me with
More paranoia
To sift through
And sitting through
One more superfluous meeting
Might soon reveal
Looks
Can at times
Be deceiving
My name, image, likeness
Empire of thieving
My pound of flesh
Wounded pride’s
Internal bleeding
Not fit to be leading
A nation of many
When personally,
Morally
Bankrupted
Plenty

Crooked cronies crowing
For a fatter slice
Of pie
Murderous
The blood is flowing
Reservoirs
Are running dry
And all the while
Skying high
The eagle profits,
Cuts its losses
And makes turkeys
On Thanksgiving
With its guns
And burning crosses
And its greater
Costs of living
Of the doves
And hawks
The parrot squawks
Their dreams of being free
But from behind
A barred complex,
A nest,
A caged
Hypocrisy

Why not just leave me
Alone all those years
You could see in me
Something
That seldom appears
Rearing its ugly head
Soon of late
On a date
Yet she even sees peace
In my war
Mental state

The room would shrink
And vanish
I’d be left alone
To panic
Into darkness
Closing in
Around me
Soon would I be banished
Feeling famished
For companionship
Bereft of love
A cancerous
Despondency
Would start to grow
Your warnings
Echo
Told you so
And knowing we
Had come so far
Learned to accept
The way we are
Discovered some
Profound compassion
Deep connection
Satisfaction
Just to see us
Overcome
By strife
Would render me
Undone

Alive as we were that day
Walking around
I still thought of decaying
With you in the ground
As if that was the end result
Goal I should set
All the days in between
I would drink to forget
So long as assured
In eternity
Stayed
The romanticized
You and I
Picturesque frame

Misfortune continues
Befalling me
Just
As soon as I’ve regained
Some semblance of trust
It will all be ok
Maybe finally work out
Without dread apprehensions
To still think about
There is no resting easy
Until it’s resolved
And of my culpability
Hope I’m absolved
In the interim thinking it over
Too long
All the million plus ways
It goes awfully wrong
Soon enough
Like it seems
It is meant to prevent me
From what pleasant dreams
Still remain possibilities
Where will life lead?
I don’t want to find out
Just give up and recede
So at least I’d preemptively
Cease disappointment
Before it eventually
Knows no avoidance

Reminisce
In it
Reflect upon pieces
And fragmented memory’s
Ironed-out creases
Reach deep to unfold
Those I can not keep secret
And keep with
Traditional
Be me
Replete with
Occasional fantasies
Some day
To meet with
To sleep with it
Passionate love with it
Make
And unto it
Break
With convention
Hearts take

Reach out
Through the screen
Not so naive
To think I save them
Bade them all
A fond farewell
Within the hour
Then I rate them
On a scale of one to five
The session
As a whole
Describe
And should they need me
Come tomorrow
I’ll be back
At anytime

Tread the fallen leaf trail
Of no avail, my cares disband
And like an unrelenting gale
Exhale
As my adrenal gland
Expands, secretes
A fervent surge
Emergent forward
Motion urge
A dirge of shrieking madness purges
Toxin sweaty streaming sheen
The thin veneer constricts the skin
But cools it to the touch of crisp
And briskly wispy  
Autumn’s kiss
Like whiskey I’m besotted by
The heady high,
The dizzy sky,
The halcyon
Todays gone by

Thus ends my journey
Some evil dies young
When exhausted all words
To convey how I’ve hung
From a rope of indifference
To life
For too long
Barely kicking,
Just dangling,
Suspended in song
Elegiac, I wish
Just constricting
My throat
Squirming vertically,
Gurgling,
In anguish I choke
On another addition
To suicide note
That I wrote
Multitudinous ways
To escape
But my finest
Is yet to come
Just sit and wait

A lost thought
Can change
The day
In ways
As manifold
As power plays
Attempt to undo
Neutral ground
The territory
Watered down
Becomes a barren,
Vast expanse
Of merely witnessing romance

In the morning dread darkness
A comforting calm
Before storms of distress
Offers no sort of balm
To the overload mental
Disorders dismembered
On different directions
I’m pulled and outstretched
A laborious task master
Taxing unrest
Is the only force
Carrying on
To conclusion
To do it
Or just give it up
The illusion
I’m actually qualified,
Capable,
Savvy
With info wars waging
My piece of the happy

Tye-dying tycoons
With the blood on their hands
They deceive us,
Then leave us,
The really Bad Lands
Still abandoning kids
As if
Domestic terror,
To hawk and dove
F-22’s of a feather
All silent on climate
In inclement weather
All wires and viruses’
Six second tethers
To whether or not
There’s an ocean on fire,
A sickened sphere
Nearing
Its next Dallas Buyer
To coax the illusion
Of culture supreme
Propagating its art
Like the seed in the stream
So concede all your dreams
To the fascist fact-actory
Watch the facade of god
Build the ol’factory
Sense of the dollars and cents
In the hacking spree,
Even your stocks
Aren’t safes
When the state
Has already cracked codes
Of your mind,
Calculate

Brain before the black face
Not so blameless
All the same
We’re misappropriating
Disparate
From mispronouncing names
Containing all the weight
Of connotations
Can’t concede
Success
Is predeterminate  
From birth
Is indiscriminately
Less
Than nothing’s worth
Caricaturing
A skin difference
As indifference
But forgive me
If my generation’s trauma
Doesn’t fit this
Foot the bill
For their transgressions
Class dividing
Greedy wretches
Old as gold
Still coins the
Bits and pieces
Of our
Great Depression

And that’s when I start to
Revisit
The pivot
We ****** around
Wasted away
And I give it
My all to still
Fall for you
Crawl in the avenue
Small,
Insignificant
Speck
Undeserving
I swerve
In adverbs
And I fervor
Exerting  
A tired and sick
Of this ****
Life existence
I miss the first time
I could die
In the distance

September skies
My eye belies
As everything seems more alive
When surely this
Capricious season’s
Mild nature’s
Rhyme and reason
Here can be
All far too fleeting
Leaving us
In winter’s thralls
Of sentimental
Deck the halls
As cold and gray
As any day
Of existentialist decay

Whole world is burning
And I just got fired
When did I become
Prone to failing
And mired
In following orders
To still no avail,
For surely some side effects
By compare
Pale
To this ghastly affliction
Still plaguing me thus
I am just
Never good enough
To the side brushed
Like the dust in the wind
Except worth even less
When I clean up my act
I just make a worse mess
Of performances
Albeit standards are high
And at times seem impossible
Why even try

Bastion of progress
The citadel shines
In the morning sunrise
As our grandeur defines
What the rest of the world
Can aspire to reach
The example we set
Evermore we could seek
To establish,
Preserve,
For the future
Secure
Though we aim to claim peace
Always ready for war
Should defending
The home
From invasions
Be needed
And should the truce falter
No land be conceded
For even in greed
We agreed
To play fair
And the barons
Don’t dare
Tyrants do not compare
To hegemony
Menacing
Racial supremacy
Scapegoating cultural shades
As the enemy

Now that I’ve lost you
It’s clear
What it cost you
What put you through
Days of unhappiness
Plainly
As clear as it’s been
From the start to me
Mainly
But often
As into the coffin’s
Unmade me
My love still persistent
Albeit,
Ungainly
In ways I could phrase it
Mistakes just erase it
And then no forgiveness,
No hoping
Could save it
If yours disappears
Then we cannot endeavor
To once again
Rest
On the shores
Of forever

Still wreckless as any
Top speeder
Still racin’
Their wasted time
Pitying
Other’s temptations
And breakin’
More laws
Than the bones
To pick with it
Intrinsic injustice
Inclined to resist it
And minding my own
Business
Seems like a chore
When I know keeping peace
Often looks more like war

Come back when you’re ready
To let me stare into you
Baring my soul
Sharing I am so
Into you
Gladly could carry on
Days unrequited
Accustomed,
I’ve learned
The best love’s
Undecided
Or certain
It’s only been felt
Unsurpassed
So we close ourselves off
And compare and contrast
Just enough
To convince ourselves
It could be fun
But commitments
To prior engagements
Become
What the one
For ostensibly
Everyone
Finds
A devotion
To never could try
Other kinds

I look back
And wish
It was different
Than this
I don’t want to be old
And alone
Gettin’ ******
At the slightest
Disturbance
Of my peace of mind
By the simpletons
Not seeing my
Eye to eye
When the weather is weird
And bizarre
Is the word
I would use
To describe it all
First
But perhaps
Not the perfect
Conversing
Immersed
More in only more
Mine
Kind of **** to deal with
Since it’s news to me
Cared to share
Its
Acid trip

Hard to appreciate
Simple past
Present
When with or without it
Our role is quiescent
But here we are actively
Forming foundations
Preserved by philanthropy
Grants and donations
Not just in these pages
Its learning potential
Relies not on stages  
To be consequential
But somewhat contingent
On how much we care
To preserve it
Impart it
Impartially share
To the best
Recollection
What most likely happened
When tribes
Congregations
And kingdoms
Imagined
Whatever their future
Could presage
Must be
Reified
First and foremost
In their
History

Getting the hang of this
Loosening noose
Of this not worth my salt
By default
My excuse
No more use
It’s defunct
A debunked
Absolute
To be what I aspire
An alternate route
Is available
Offered
Contained
In her text
And I anticipate
And await
What comes next

I saw what we could be
And yet
What we are
What we were
All at once
Just the kids of a star