red pen lines cover pale thighs and i am almost ashamed.

I need you to know that I love you.
I love you more than anything in this entire world and always will, forever and always.

I need you to know that I'm never leaving unless you ask me to.
I will stay until the end of time, through thick and thin, forever and always.

I need you to know that you're my everything.
You are my moon, my light, my life, my air, my will, my fight, forever and always.

I need you to know that I will never hurt you.
The thought of you being hurt kills me and I could never ever do that to you, ever, forever and always.

i am ******* lost without you,
i am a ******* mess.
i have cried,
i have broken down.
i haven't eaten,
i haven't slept.
i need you so much
and
you don't even realize it.
i miss you so much,
i am so desperate for you.
turn back to me.
*please.

The broken pieces of my heart make his a whole

Pain is your friend.

Pain tells you when you've been wounded badly.

But you know the best part about pain?

It tells you you're not DEAD YET.

have you ever thought that maybe i lied when i said i was okay?
have you ever thought that maybe i lied when i said i was getting better?
have you ever thought that maybe i lied when i said i haven't cut for months?
have you ever thought twice about something i said?
*have you ever ******* cared?

it's nice to know that you think of me sometimes.
that my name forms on the tip of your tongue.
that i cross your mind.

it's nice to know that sometimes you might see something that reminds you of me.
it's nice to know that i'm still there,
that i haven't disappeared or gone silent in your head.

it's nice to know that i still matter,
even if it's only in the slightest bit.

after all, that's all i ever wanted.

(a.m.)