One day,
The heart will beat no more
What would people say
After you're gone
What marks will you leave behind
Would they say he/she was kind
Most importantly...
Would your last words be,
Yes, I feel accomplished
Or give me one more chance please?

I'm dubious,

I will never know what life brings for me.
Some days, I believe in my abilities and
Moments later, my other mind will interrogate me.
Who am I and what do I bring by existing?

I will never know since I'm so doubtful.
Doubtful of all the beautiful things in life.
Especially love, since I don't exist
To love anymore.  

If we're not here to love, what are we here for?
If we can barley live, why are we living after all.
Maybe one day I'll find my path,
But for now, I'll continue to be in a quandary.

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