Sunrise sunset
Don't drown urself in so much regret
The hours pass the days fly by
Your waiting on yourself to die
Breathe in breathe out
Don't burden urself with so much doubt
Searching for someone you wish you knew
Time is an obstacle don't let it deceive you
Look up not down
You got to keep swimming or you'll drown
The search is over the suspense is lost
Ur life is fleeting we all pay the cost
Good morning good night
Don't perish before you give up the fight
Darkness doesnt always suppress the light

I felt vulnerable so I reached out
But you cut off my hand
I felt empty and drowned in my tears
While you remained on dry land
I felt nostalgic so I wrote about it
but you never heard my plea....
So I learned how to swim and
Floated in my sad sea

How barren a stranger has made me feel
Like everything I touch isn't for real
How I can't even sleep or take a meal
Filled with regret signing the devils deal

I hid her from the worlds display
Behind the fortress you chipped away
All for nothing, just so you could say
You didn't like her anyway.

Like a rock I crumble under the erosion of obstacles insane
Like the sun I burst into my own foreshadow’s flames
Like the wind I feel every tentacle of love’s sting in vain
Like the trees I stand absolute through my epiphanies and pain

The only time I've really felt alive
Is with smoke in my lungs, going 99
Trying my best to get this heart to revive
Doing the minimum it takes to survive
Wind in my hair, pedal under my feet
Music so high, I'll float out of my seat
Playing all the sad songs again on repeat
Learning how to accept my hearts worst defeat

Fresh heartache - nothing makes u feel so alive
Yet so close to death at the very same time

I've done a lot of regrettable things in my short stint on earth but boy you take the cake

More certain than death and taxes
You spun me right off of my axis
Congratulations, that's the fastest
My heart has ever been reduced to ashes

Note to self: Sometimes a paper cut can penetrate the deepest of all

I was the moth to your hypnotic flame
You're the hypocrite that casts me shame
I'm the girl with good intentions
You're the ***** with cruel rejections
I'm the moral of every story
You're only in it for kicks and glory
You're the ashes and I rise like smoke  
You're just the **** of a really bad joke

You played every bit the part of preacher
Hope you burn for your lies callous creature
Nailed yourself to the cross, here's your crown of thorns
You know what they say about women scorned
I wish I never tried to keep you alive
cuz you were right - you're dead inside

Wandering aimlessly vs leaping dangerously
Which path shall I choose
Either way you look at it
You could win or lose
Principle vs passion
Time to pay your dues
"What's the point in living life?"
When you've got no muse
The thoughts that tend to cross your mind...
When you've got the blues

My sadness lives inside me
Carving out a home
It cannot find another
At least I'm not alone
Follows me like a shadow
It's very own entity
We always rejoin each other
Like the tide returns to sea

Pretty bird pretty bird
Locked inside your cage
Filled with hope and wonder
Despite your advancing age
Pretty bird pretty bird
Suppressing all your rage
I hope you find your own way home
Despite your broken gauge

My heart betrays me, it prefers you still
Like the cat lusts the bird from the windowsill

Dear moon, please do tell us your story
It's hard not to ponder your origin while reveling in your glory.

If depth and mystery are your weakness, meet poison

She was always really fragile but it didn't seem to matter
They all ignored the fine print: please do not shatter
Hurt to take the bullets and shield her from disaster
Didn't mean to leave you but she told me to run faster
No one found the pieces to put her back together
Tried to fill their void but it was too deep to measure
No matter how many guys tried to put it aside
She could not mask her pain, she couldn't digest her pride
She could not erase the beginning she could only change the end
All of the boys and all of the men couldn't put her back together again

Wonder how many oceans these tears could fill
Suppress the demons with the contents of a pill
No one to talk to, nowhere to turn
"Fight or flight" more like Learn or Burn

I burned what's left of u and let it go
extinguish the hate so it won't grow
Fire hydrants couldn't drown the memories
Painful reminder of sleeping with the enemy
Retrieve my soul so I may sleep sound
You can't leave your heart in the lost & found

Goodnight sunshine, hello moon
I revel in your glory and all of your gloom
I bask in your light and long for the stars
To answer my prayers please protect me from afar
Talk back to me tell me all that you know
Will religion destroy us all is it really our foe
Earth is so barren with all of its fears
I know we've disappointed you over the years
Eternally Nocturnal the world is your burden
The sun will rise soon the only constant for certain

I knew love was a truck which you would never be hit
And then I knew what unrequited meant

I take pictures of clouds I make wishes on trees I appreciate honey, the hard work of the bees
I smile at the sun and I embrace the rain that trickles down in patterns on window panes
I laugh with the birds I gaze at the stars and wonder if they know what life exists on Mars
I admire the universe and all of her wonders
She only creates masterpieces, never a blunder

You can't drown your true feelings, you can't rewrite the past
You can't pretend we never happened just because it didn't last
You can't act as if I was never there
You can't convince yourself that I didn't care
You can't take drugs to numb the pain deep inside
You can't hide me in a dark corner in the back of your mind
You need pain as a reminder that I did exist
But you run from the truth like a flying fist
You can't replace me with someone else
& put all of our memories on a broken shelf
You can't have select amnesia only for me
You can't hide on land while I'm lost at sea
You can't ignore what you need to survive
You can't bury your heart while you're still alive

Mother Nature takes her toll
On complex creatures with gentle souls
She sends them rain when they seek solace
Her stars shine so bright that they them flawless
Rays beam the brightest when they're down
And shines their warmth upon their frowns
She opens their third eye so they might see
The striking beauty in a rugged tree
They look more closely and discover
That her roots connect us to each other

The vast emptiness I endure will never compare to the amount of times I haven't crossed your mind.

Your insecurities will swallow you whole
Crack open your brain, pour out your soul
Speak with all your hearts desires
They ebb they flow, they'll soon inspire
I'll coax them out of you, one by one
Aim your bullets at me, put down that gun
Whisper slowly to me ur sacred secrets
I'll cherish them all, my verbal trinkets
I'll hang them in the back row of my mind
Lock them away where no one can find
Over their heads and into my hands
God laughs at us while we make plans
On deaf ears they'll no longer fall
Your ammunition is the art on my walls
Let them fester in me, don't u worry no more
You'll sleep better now than ever before
Rest ur head the Devil is around the corner
I'm never the martyr, always the mourner

Boys fall in love with me for the words I spew
If you read a hundred books you might pick up a few
Made me feel self conscious about the way I talked
and wonder if my hips swayed enough when I walked
wished they'd appreciate me for the stuff inside
Cuz when it comes down to it I'd rather die
Then bare my soul to someone I barely knew
I don't rest my head at night because of you
You crawled inside of me, we traded brains
Your voice echoes on repeat, slowly drives me insane
All the others only admired the shell
when you left it cut deep, I still wish you well
Blocked numbers so you don't pick up the call
You were my best mistake, no love lost at all
If only suicides were reversible....
Cuz then at least you'd love me at my funeral

My heart barely beats saturated in gas, cast in fire from the pain
You evoked the burn yet crawl slow to extinguish the black flame
My eyes sting like swarming hornets producing salty, infinite tears
My back aches from bending over your bruised ego intolerant of the years
My ears ring from the irony of your malicious mouth not uttering a sound
I floated undetected like pollen til U buried me alive 6 ft into the ground
Heart suspended no longer beating, i can no longer claim I'm sane
Only time can freeze the heavy flow like water seeping down the drain

I was not born to make you happy. my mouth was not created to form fake smiles, my brain was not formatted with a polygraph to distinguish your lies from truth, nor were my feet designed to tiptoe on eggshells around you, but hopefully my ******* should convey that my heart is no longer beating for you.

I think that we are in far too deep
in your adoration, my heart does steep
Embrace this love and forever keep
The tandem of our hearts in sync
From your kisses I desire to drink
Our vision is stronger when we sleep
We conjure and dare to conceive
A real dream within a dream
No longer I but instead now we
Our future is now our history

My face is a mask it only disguises the soul inside me that never provided
enough interest to provoke your eyes, your void & hollow compromises
you pretended to be all my desires choking on smoke to extinguish the fire u ignited, u decided, to let that transpire with no remorse, you took your course, left the door open wide
I hope you keep ur improvises on a shorter leash next time or you won't make it out alive

You're too diluted, no ones Cupid
Sometimes reckless, always stupid
Never catch on til it's too late, out of touch you cannot demonstrate
How to love and how to feel, need something more need something real
Cut your losses burn your bridges, you mustn't start what you can't finish
Don't you judge, don't be ruthless before you muster up courage to do this
Open the window close the door, your heart is dormant asleep on the floor
Shake the dust off shove it inside it's meant to break to make you feel alive

I am alone in my own world, really
You are a foreigner you cannot feel me
The atmospheres venom it can **** so easy
Will cloud ur emotions, make you feel weezy
Open your brain & invite me in, stay with me now
I'll give you plenty of oxygen that's all I'll allow
No secrets in here lt does not appease me
So lay down your heart but please do not fear the uneasy

Talk to me of the tainted tinctures in your head
How you prefer a deep shade of blue over crimson red
Tell me your fears are they similar to mine
Do you hate that there is no button U can press to rewind
Divulge your secrets I'll harvest them one by one
Where do you keep the bullets for your hypothetical gun
Look me in the eye tell me where your joy comes from
I will protect us both from the depths of the sun
If the spiders could talk that you let to see another day
What would they tell me, what would they say
The fly on the wall does he even know that you see him
And live so vicariously that U would trade places to free him

Realization spreading through my veins like cancer
I knew deep down you did not hold the answer
You said that I could do no better
You told me we would last forever
In time I learned that this was indeed untrue
It is your heart that I wish I never knew
You were my undoing, I barely recovered
Now you live with the fact that you will find no other
Doing lifetime of penance as your sentence
I bet you wish now things had turned out much different
Swallowing medicine can be so bitter
When you are alone with your regrets maybe consider
What life would be like without mistakes
I hope it hurts every beat your heart takes

Kindred spirits, they intertwine
Made together from the same design
When they were born the stars aligned
To bring them together after time
They followed their hearts and they found
That their favorite place was underground
Too dark to travel their hearts lit the way
They ruled by night and slept by day
They dug and twisted fate itself
So they may see the other version of themselves

You carved out a piece of me which only you could fulfill and decorated it with stars that shined so bright with all of the answers of the universe and with one look you saw your reflection in the vastness of their incandescence and your soul burned so bright no ocean could extinguish its flame