I have such a debilitating pain
You helped me deal with it so well
Where are you?
I miss you.
I'm so lonely with out you.
But, I have a debilitating Central Nervous System Disorder, and
My arms, I just want to make them disappear
My legs, they feel like I need to cut them off, they ache so badly
Want to sever my limbs by any means necessary because they hurt me so badly...
My chest, I get rather short of breath, like I just ran a marathon
My back aches like I've been hit with a baseball bat
It is actually quite like you'd feel, after running a marathon, except I don't get better;
Then now,
You're not here to be the pills that ease my pain
You're not here to be the relief when I just want to cry
You're not here to cuddle and comfort me anymore-
Oh wait, I'll have to finish this later
I have a brother screaming at me
I have parents calling me lazy
They don't understand my awful, awful pain
I have new medication to take your place
But sometimes I take too much
My body aches so badly sometimes. Combine it with the heartache I must bear sometimes simultaneously, and I feel that my days roaming this earth this way will be very limited...
I just had the worst anxiety attack of the week smack in the middle of one of my bouts...
Sometimes I'm sick enough to hope this disease gets worse and kills me. You made me forget.