Silver Lining

Silver Lining May 2014

Writing

You can tell
When something comes
From the heart
And when it comes
From the *soul

#love #poem #short #heart #thoughts #soul #writing #difference #random

Silver Lining Apr 2014

I always wanted
Someone to tell
My darkest secrets to.

I always wanted
Someone that I
Could trust with my thoughts

I always wanted
Someone to love
My every fault

I always wanted
Someone to tell
Me their own story

I always wanted
Someone that I
Could love uncondionally

I always wanted
Someone to love
My need to write poems

I always wanted
Someone like you
But now I am afraid

Because how would
Someone like you
Want to love a poet

A poet who
Cannot seem to
Talk about loving you?

I love him. I know I do. But every time I try to say it- the words catch in my throat. I told him that I was in love with him- but it's not the same. I wish I could tell him- why is it so hard for me to just say "I love you"

#love #trust #poet #him #patience #you #hearts #inlove #recovery

Silver Lining Apr 2014

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That forbidden line
Had become a devilish
FRIEND

It's so hard to come back across
It's pathetic
Devilish line
Lies foretold
No- not lies
Truths with a twist of what they
Want to hear
Give it to them
With a twist
Rotten. Rotten
Once- I was small and I didn't care
But that time has long since past
Now I'm grown- but I'm smaller
Than ever.

#lies #truth #weak #forbidden #strong #lines #small #twist #grown

Apr 2014

no one

silent

the girl who once had so much to say
is now afraid to open her mouth

-k.l.

#sad #depression #alone #quiet #selfharm #rejected #introverted #opinionated

Silver Lining Apr 2014

False Confidence and Synthetic Beauty

It's funny
How a simple black line,
A pigmented powder,
And a plastic line glued to my eyelid
Can make me feel pretty
Makes me feel presentable
It makes me feel like I'm worth something

But even so-
It's false.
Synthetic.
It's all a lie.

Oh how I wish I could stop lying.

I don't feel comfortable leaving my house without full make-up, no I'm not a 'cake face' I don't plaster it on. I wear it simply, but I still wear it.

#lies #beauty #lying #false #confidence #makeup #synthetic

Silver Lining Apr 2014

Amazing

It's amazing
                     Isn't it?
    What a difference
                                                       EIGHT
                             *******

                                                   POUNDS
makes..

                       I was feeling okay
    Then I stepped on that ****** scale
                                              And now
I'm                   Falling
            To
     P
      E
         I
           C
              E
                 S

If only that were a literal statement..
            Then maybe I could forget some shards of myself

And I'll be lighter

I'm back up to my heighest weight. And I'm not okay.

#heartbroken #ana #skinny #weight #ed #ednos #eight #gained #pounds

Silver Lining Apr 2014

That Night

The soft hum of crickets-
Made the gun shot sound like a canon.
And the old mans soft cries-
The volume of a giant.

#man #pain #guns #old #cries #shot #movies #gunshot #ofmiceandmen #oldman