you said that things were getting hard

and I couldn’t think of what to say
 to let you know what I was thinking

with the admittance of your struggle

it felt as though my heart had been ripped from my chest
and all the air had disappeared from my lungs
I wanted to fix you

to make you feel whole
 again
because that’s what you deserve
but I didn’t know how to tell you this

so I smiled sadly

as I usually do

and promised things would get better

so hopefully

you might be able to tell that all I want

is for you to be happy

maybe the reason why
I can only write at night
is because that’s when we
were truly us
you first held me in your arms
and nervously kissed my lips
in the faint light of the stars
and now that you’re gone
the light of the stars
illuminates my will
to fill the hole you left
with anything I can
like words of my affection
for the boy that is no longer mine

I would trade anything to have you say hello
because you’ve filled my thoughts
faster than anyone else ever has

I’ve fallen in love with your smile
and the way you simply are

I’d love to be yours
but you don’t even know my name

so I guess I’ll stick to stolen glances
and pretending it was meant to be
when I catch your eye