I'm not sure
What series of events
Lead up to us meeting
To us kissing
To your face in my hands
And your body sealed against mine
But I'm glad it happened
And I believe
That if it wasn't for you
So carelessly walking into my life
I would not be the happy person
I am now
I will never forget you
And I will always love you

I watched you gasp for breath
As the waves consumed your being
I tried to grab your hand
But you were already six feet under

I dove into the water
I found you sinking there
You saw me but your eyes were dead
You didn't even flinch

I tried to pull you up
But there were anchors on your feet
Did you put them there yourself?

I wish I could say
I was the one who detached the weight
The one who pulled you to shore
But this was not my doing

You saw some sort of light
At the end of this nightmare
You found the hope and courage
To tear the anchors apart

I hope you're standing in the sun
Enjoying it now even more
You didn't lose your way
You just took a detour

(I'm glad you're back on track)

She left roses where she touched me
She also left thorns
My soul is sore
My heart is torn

I thought she had made
An irreversible mess
But you came along
And as you slipped off my dress

I breathed deep
In and out
With every touch
A new flower would sprout

Now I know love doesn't last
And I'm not expecting it to
And I know that these new flowers
Will soon turn to thorns too

I'm not sure what's happening anymore, the snow still hasn't gone away. It's the first day of Spring, and that should make me happy, but this year it does not. Even last March, I still smiled at the hopes of Spring. This year, there was no smile. Things should be going very well, I'm in a dance class now and I've finally found the school that I can excel in. But nothing can bring a brightness to my dull eyes. I lost my mind ages ago, I don't know why this hurts so much; perhaps because I thought I found my sanity, but it was only a mere speck of light. The snow may melt and Spring may come, but this dark tundra that is roaring inside me will never wither.

It's 9:00
On a sunday night
I am etching your name
Into the crevasses of my mind

I feel this has all happened before
Will the results stay the same?
Will I spend nights drenched in blood
Trying to forget your name?

Early morning
I awoke from my deep sleep
I tumbled out of bed
And tripped over my sheets
I manage to make it to the living room
Mother is asleep on the chair
Father is in bed
They had another fight last night
They said this is the end
I don't know why their words
Did not shake nor rattle my mind
They've said it all before
Way too many times
I look throughout the house
I'm trying to find something nice
But I realize that I'm always alone
And this will always be my life