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MD Jan 2014
It's cold outside
I think my thoughts have frozen over
Lately I've been in and out of reality
Sometimes I can't tell the difference

This winter has been so harsh
I'm losing people
I'm losing myself
(Am I even here right now?)

My once warm blood
Has suddenly turned to ice
It's too cold for me
To function
And I wish you were here
Like in the winter of 2011
When you slept on my floor with me
And we ate popcorn
While my brother hit on you

My head is spinning
I don't remember today
I don't remember anything
Besides that look on your face
When you told me you loved me

You were always so good at lying
MD Jan 2014
Psychology has taught me a few things

i. There was no love radiating from her like I thought, sometimes our memories are not always accurate.
ii. Therapists care about me the same amount they care about their other patients, they want to get into your head and solve your problems because it's interesting to them. They don't truly care.
iii. The next time you look in the mirror and wonder who you really are, remember that personality is thought of in many different ways. There are so many different groups of people that all think of personality different. You're the only one who knows who you are.
MD Jan 2014
first kisses don't matter, only last.
MD Jan 2014
You said you were sorry
That you left without notice
Just by saying that
You healed a wound inside of me
I was sure would be open forever

I threw away a lot of stuff
I'm growing much too old
It's hard to say goodbye to things
I've grown accustomed to

I found a lot of stuff
While searching through my room
A full bottle of pills
A few razor blades
****** tissues
****** notes
I threw them all away

I suppose
This is just a part of growing up
I have to learn to let go
Because change will not hurt me
Deep down I know that's true

Nothing has changed in so long
These part two years
I've remained the same

I'm ready to let myself grow
MD Jan 2014
The stars slowly fade
Into the darkness of night
Just as the sun
Blended in with the clouds
The amount of daylight is waning
The nighttime is cold
With the harsh winter wind
When will I see
Sunshine again?
MD Jan 2014
Changing; it is true
It does put a strain on you
I am not content
haiku
MD Jan 2014
The monster inside me
Won't leave me alone
It controls all my thoughts
And has made me its home
I've tried drugs and to bleed
For awhile they'd work
But on my mind they would feed
In my heart they'd lurk
These demons won't go
No matter how I try
My self esteem's low
And this may be my last goodbye
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