This in an apology letter To anyone whose ever left me Because I was too Nosy Obsessive Clingy I'm so ******* sorry And I wish I could say that I've changed And I wish I could say you can come back now But I'm still the exact same I wish someone could break down the wall of my obsession And see that there's actually a person there With feelings A person who tries so hard to hold onto people Because I know what it feels like when everyone leaves This is an apology letter To you For not showing that my true intentions Were not to annoy you But to make sure you know That I would always care about you
I am at a constant war with myself And it's not because I don't see myself The way others see me It's because I see myself Exactly how others see me When I talk to someone I can see how obnoxious and intrusive I am But I do not have the power to stop myself I try so ******* hard to hold on to people Because I know that someday they're going to leave And maybe I'm holding on too tight Maybe I'm pushing them away unintentionally But I just care so much about people More than I care for my own self I especially care about you But you do not care about me I am a real person With valid feelings And it's about **** time that someone Actually gives a **** About me
And if that first kiss Was my only kiss Upon your lips Let me say It was the greatest kiss I've ever had And if all you said Was never meant Let me say This was the best amount of time I've ever spent If you never cared Not even a bit Let me say You and I Could be a really nice fit
"Do you ever think about dying" You whispered to me As I had my hand down your pants Maybe this isn't poetry But, ****, the way your brain works Is poetic to me
Sometimes my words don't make sense Like when I try to explain How I've been dead for 2 years Or when I try to say That lately I've been drowning In a sea full of darkness Talking has never been One of my talents So I keep quiet I observe I wait I wonder