I immediately got up from the thunderous
huge huge strong flow
from strong lightning she numbered in my
in my poor miserable tortured head
she sounded and destroyed everything

tomorrow I go to the mess again tomorrow I again
I go to eternity tomorrow I fall again tomorrow
I go to paper again tomorrow I go to light again
tomorrow i'm going to darkness again tomorrow i'm again
tomorrow I’m going back up as before

grow like a tree or not a tree or what
tomorrow or now or now it is tomorrow or
tomorrow was yesterday or tomorrow was in childhood
when was it tomorrow and tomorrow it is now
tomorrow as now there is no life

13.10.18

a huge strong wind in the street
on the street and in the squares and even on the mountain
where I was where I sang songs at all
recently today where met evening where
watched the sunset and yawned and tired and raged

a huge huge strong wind outside the window
as if the fire no longer holds the frame
as if the fire had completely forgotten what it was
it was as if I was losing myself once and for all
and forever and to the end and forever and forever so

and today many different sounds were reproduced
many different sounds and minor and major
but most birds and I was like birds in flight
and shouted and sang I and I created a huge parade because
that the wind never leaves my heart

12.10.18

autumn autumn well where are you
where are you and your mouth where are you
and your music is the same fall autumn where
where are you why I can't hear everything
why can't I hear or hear everything
and I do not hear you and I do not hear or see
I am yours your mouth

oh autumn oh autumn knock you again you
come to my door come to me my
great inspiration my great revelation
oh come in oh come in and heat you run me like
man demand i demand new updates
and new i'm like person like person want
new water and new food

and again the stars in the sky will play and sing
and again there will be people all singing on their phones
and again and again and again and again I will go
I will go without knowing where and why and I will go
and I will go I will go only in gold only
in the cold only in devastation which means in
too strong filled place

11.10.18

I looked at the mesmerized calendar
here and my autumn passes but so quite
It was recently the end of august
most recently was september and now
here and here almost october has passed
almost that our autumn flashed and why
and why does she run away so fast

day after day day after day day shifts
turns day and night lights up and night disappears
and the night sings and my eyes are burning and my eyes
mine brighter and brighter from its emptiness from its
silence from your silence louder and louder
ignite about so many years already passed as if
and one minute has passed and even nothing at all

10.10.18

quiet quiet in the night room now
quiet quiet it's time to close soon
close my eyes again today
and again and again go to miracles
and again and again feel some dreams
only dreams only dreams

the light and the light burns and says and
says his bright and bright greetings and
hello o light and light o light and light
soon and soon it's time for everyone to sleep
soon and soon only the moon will warm
she alone in the sky night and lonely

09.10.18

and live in immense solitude
every day and every night every
hour and every minute in this world
and everyone is not in the world and in the dark
be alone every day
every day walking among people
and be and be alone forever
great loneliness among people
some people are about so many smiles on
their mouths but i only have grief in my eyes

and in this world I am eternal destiny and on this
in the light i'm an eternal hostage eternal prisoner
and please my cell is my prison
great my loneliness is long long
everlasting everlasting loneliness that never
did not begin and never ended
and that never comes to an end and
never come to the beginning so many years
and so many winters among the peaks and always one

08.10.18

outside the window comes autumn outside the window goes
it goes slowly outside the window
outside the window is a favorite sweet time

outside the window snow rushing outside the window
fly they fly they are my joyful children
my yellow lovely leaves are running through the window

about how many years about how many days and hours
I breathe here among the houses in the middle of the moon
among the lanterns and among the stars alone


time passes it passes it rushes
flies and flies like a bird in the sky like cold
and how warm it all runs and runs

smiles and sorrows tears and dreams of joy and
only grief and love and gaze at the sea
all over and over with me all over and over

о the immortal melody
oh how much more will you be here oh how much
still i will be here such a sad joyful wanderer

07.10.18