forget with you
about this world
we will go together with you
into the abyss

forget with you
about this light
we will go together with you
in the shade

o let's meet together
new testament
o let's walk together
and scream

01.10.18

time time time how much
the same time you pushed me and killed me
how many times did you destroy me
how many times how many times
how many times now about I think
that we all live in the memory of that
we do not live that all the sleep now I do not
I can understand where we are and live
whether we are either asleep or asleep or dreaming

time time time how many times how many
once you made me do water with fire
how many times did I feel my childhood
once I felt old I was born and therefore
I'm dead so perhaps will be forever about time being
time I sleep whether I'm sleeping now because everything is not
sleep alone in a dream because all the reality of what is
it's reality where we are and how we do what we do
did I ever have a childhood

30.09.18

again rush is coming
where it is sent again and
where do I all run and where am I going to hurry
where am I going again
where all this strange
a strange incomprehensible terrible gloomy run
where did my lips go so far

I'm the ghost I was born and so I'm dead
it has always been and always will be
eternity it is we are eternity all eternity
and there are no sections there are no roses
no sunflowers or daisies or flowers
nothing and never in the world is only one
one hurry is one of my strange non sparkling
horrifying and gloomy and blue as a scent

29.09.18

was among the lanterns again
flashlights again
among the stars again in the middle of the world
again among the planets again among
the sun again among the paints again
among the lamps all over again
again and again among the lanterns

I walked boldly along the streets
I walked along the streets and walked on and on
I went boldly and boldly to the streets
but why and where did I go but why
but why and among the lanterns I was and
among lanterns and among lanterns and among
only lanterns and starlight

28.09.18

a huge piano and endless
piano sounds of endless sounds
about every day haunts me and everyone
day it sings to me so much already
many many years every day

and I remember the days of evening winter when my brother
and grandmother were together when everyone was
were near and when I did not know did not know the sorrows
o remember I began to paint and tears again
and again they have found me and eternity

all eternal eternity is a great eternity and all
the sounds of that piano of that past
happiness and the world of peace that has long been gone
world of a happy world of a bright warm world
not the world of the cold not of the world of
the terrible world of the sad

27.09.18

walk on human eyes
walks around the eyes every day
and every night all the walls of this world
all its circles and all its angles
it's all me and all this is my eyes all this
I and all this are my eyes all this is me and everything
these are my eyes and so it was always and here
every day every day I go
and look only at my eyes only
on your eyes and more only
on your eyes and nothing more and nothing

then on what I write every day then where am I
I go every day that I eat every day
what I listen to every day is what I watch
every day what I hear every day is
about what I think every day is that I'm in the hands
take every day all this is my face and my skin
my eyes and only my eyes all this I all this
I and only I and so will always be so always
so it will always be like this forever and death is me
but death eternal life eternal life eternal life
the eternal transition is all this I am all this I am all my eyes

26.09.18

importantly find the key
the main thing is to find him finally
very important very necessary very
it is important as usual to find
this key you need to find it

but there were days and the wind was coming
and the keys were whether I had
I always went and went but from this
I just froze and stopped now
I can not walk anymore

I'm looking for an answer that used to be
I still have answers that used to be
who used to be with me I'm looking for answers
answers to noisy noisy wind
to the noisy noisy wind outside the window key

25.09.18