Is there no more love  
Doesn't it make you want to cry
This earth, it's about to die
Everyone turns a blinds eye
Why ?
Why ?
Does everyone just stand by
And not here the outcry
I am horrified
That  no one wants to rectify  
All they want to do is justify
And just get by
and not try
I guess it's easier to comply
To do nothing must be more
Dignified
Why ?
Are people so satisfied
To just set back and watch this world die
Why ?
Are people not terrified
Because they are waiting for it to be clarified
When it happens I guess then they will be mortified
Then
It will be to late to ask

Why ?
!!

Living my life and this is the cost
Being lost
Tell me please
Is it just me
In this state of feeling lost
Is this the way it should be
As every morning defrost
Feeling so lost
My eyes glossed
When did this happen to me ?
When my love I lost ?
Setting silent I often ponder and wander
Are they as lost as me ?
Are we, still what we both need ?
Why could it not be ?
Are they thinking of me ?
Are they feeling the same need ?
To see me ?
Lost
After not hearing their laughter
I listen and think I hear it in the rafters
While laying in bed thinking of our mornings after
I am
Lost
!!

The night you walked out the door
And you decided you would no longer be my wife
And that you no longer wanted to be part of my life  
You should've  just stabbed me in the heart with a knife
"The Pain"

All the lonely nights
All the wishing you might
All the mornings that I woke and you were not beside me
All the times I dropped to my knees
Caused by  
"The Pain"

Just walking around in a daze
My days  
Sundays, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays  
Saturdays......
Nothing but a haze
"Time"
How unkind
"The Pain"

My heart
It cannot stand us being apart
It cannot find the energy for a fresh start
It cannot stop it's bleeding
It needs you needing
All it is feeling
Is
"The Pain"

During the nights
I dream that you come back
Crying out your name
Then I wake in the pitch black
To realize you are not back
"Panic attack"!!
"The Pain"

I step out into the rain
Because I have no more tears
Scream out your name
Hoping you will hear
And you will come back
And we forget the night you walked out the door
And you take away
"The Pain"
                                          !!







  
  


,

I am who I am
Sure I play
Love a good roll in the hay
Shame it's not everyday
It's got to be my way
Yep, you need to be brave
Once we engage
O.k., call it misbehave
Afterwards !!
I will be what you crave
I am who I am
I will always speak my mind
Pull back and I try to be kind
I am not a person that is refined
What the hell
"Touching glasses with my cocktail"
" Do tell "
But into the detail
I am who I am
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words will never hurt me
Get my drift
Make it swift
Don't listen to senseless ****
I am who I am
My friends I would never betray
Just loyal in that way
Count on me everyday
I am who I am
Tough, rough and a little gruff
So they say
I am that way
What do they want a powder puff
I am who I am
I will stand up for what I believe
I will more then likely never reprieve
I guess hard headed and set in my ways
"Hey" I can blame that on my age
I am who I am
I want apologize
For who
Or what I am

" I am who I am"
          !!

Some say it's what is on the inside
Not what people see on the outside

But it's not the inside
It's what people see on the outside

It's not the inside
That attracts from the outside

It is the outside that attracts
To the inside

The outside
A cover for the inside

The inside
Never compares to the outside

The outside
Never seen as the inside

The inside
Is more then the outside

The outside
Hides the inside

The inside
Hardly seen on the outside

The inside
You should show from the outside

The outside self should be as well the inside self  
The inside self should be as well the outside self

Inside and outside just be your-self.

so many this world has stole
that are no longer whole  
putting first their own goals
not having any self-control
something I think the Devil has stole
one by one our souls
so many has forgotten his good grace
it's not happened at a slow pace
or in any particular place nor
to just one race
"A Disgrace"
that we have lost God's embrace
something you cannot replace
can you imagine
we allowed our souls
to be stolen by the fire  breathing dragon
God's heart now sagging
he is no longer hearing prayer
nothing more to share ?
why would you dare
then we wonder why our souls
our in despair
no longer aware
"Beware"
our souls
!!

as the sun goes down
as i roam the house, there is no one to be found
silent with no sound
i sat down, to unwound
there is no light, dark, as i look around
how profound
this house with no life abound
sad to say none inbound
or none that will come round
Silent nights
where did everyone go
all my family, friends, all the people I know
where did it go
the love that use to flow
where did they go  
the hearts that once glowed
Silent nights
all is calm
with so much peace
life's release
it's not for me, it's not in my heart
but still disconnected and still living apart
no mother of my child
no lives to share or to take part
Silent nights
lonely I might
but by knowing God
he keeps my life bright
i always sleep
in heavenly peace
in my
Silent nights
!!

When I was a teen
I ran into a pond hoping to
drown

When I was in my early teens
two men
nothing to say, but how mean
took something from me
youth and my virginity
not just once
what they did to me
without permission
i became their mission
keeping quiet and without
any admissions
about what they took from me
now older
i now have to deal
with the damage
they did mentally
i cut my wrist
not accidentally
took a hand full of pills
now thinking back
it gives me cold chills
what they took from me
no more
will i ever allow them
to try take my life
from me
no more hoping
to
drown
no more
will they take from me
     !!