I live in a broken home.
****** up doors and shattered windows.
Banging on the walls, begging for mercy.
Wishing for someone, anyone to save me.
To save me from myself.
I burst into flames and crash into winds.
Trying to find the love that I never had.
Looking for the parent that was never there.
Sobbing at the little girl in the blue and white dress.
Who just wanted her father to hold her.
Fighting for the attention that he should have gave her.
Screaming for the voice that she never had.
That little girls father never came back.
He never loved her.
Now that little girl.
Is all grown up.
And she doesn't give a **** about you.

Laying in your arms.
Surrounded by darkness.
Feeling the slight pecks on my fore head.
The tiny words of affection in my ear.
My eyes become so heavy.
As my body weakens.
I give you one last kiss.
Stare deep into your heart.
Lightly brush your cheek.
I whisper in your left ear.
Goodnight.

Roses are Red.
Violets are Blue.
No I will not *******.
Roses are Red.
Cactuses are Green.
I want to rip out your ******* spleen.
Roses are Red.
Some are white
I hope you choke and die tonight.
Roses are Red.
Thorns are thick.
I want to casterate your two inch ****.
Roses are red.
Your blood is too.
Because I just ******* killed you.

Stars fill the dark night sky.
Emptiness ceases me to cry.
My heart missing piece after piece.
Awaiting the feeling of being whole.
Of feeling your warmth apon my skin.
Or the gentle kiss on my lips.
I cannot bare this pain anymore.
Sobs of despair reach out from my lungs.
Laying under this street light hoping for death.
An escape from this eternal nightmare.
A life without you.
Is a life no longer worth living.
So I'll die at my own hand.
Then hopefully.
I will see you again.

On the tip of my tongue.
My self respect slithers away.
Embracing your toxicity.
Lustful illusions shape in my head.
Laying here in this lonely bed.
Bare skinned and cold hearted.
As you waltz in the room.
Heart jumping out of my chest.
My body throbbing for you.
As we crash into each other.
Like waves crashing against the shore.
Pounding into the pleasure.
Screaming and sweat.
I dig my nails deeper into your back.
The final blow leaves me thoughtless.
Exhausted next you.
Silent and satisfied.

Lay alone in the dark.
Eyes closed staring at the ceiling.
My heart sinks inside my chest.
Thoughts spiraling out of control.
"Why am I here?"
"How long do I have left?"
It makes me feel so empty.
How most of my life is wasted.
Tossed aside by unnecessary things.
I don't want to be tied down.
By the miserable pleaurlties of my mother before me.
Explore, live in happiness, achieve my dreams.
That is the life I want to live.
It seems so unnatainable.
Out of reach.
I hide in the darkness for now.
In my own treacherous meloncholy.
Until that one day illuminates me.