J ust being in your presence
E very passing day
S hould  we but fall to sin your word helps guide us all the way
U nconditional your offer to us your heart of love
S uch sacrifice and suffering for all from up above

No other man who ever walked so humbly on this earth
Has ever loved or sacrificed his life
And all it's worth
No other man has ever cared enough that he should die
To reassure each one of us eternal life won't pass us by
No other man has ever shown the world he was so brave
By hanging on a cross so that all mankind he'd save
No other man can we compare to him until this day
No other man should we follow
He is the truth -the life -the way ...........

Last night as I was dreaming
I saw in my minds eye
Many happy faces
Of people passing by
I saw the people caring
With smiles across their face
The whole world was united
Humanity embraced
No hunger lead to starvation
No pain was dealt or felt
I heard the sound of music
Every human heart
Did melt
No critical words were spoken
No predudice in sight
No lonely hearts were beating
They felt loved and held on tight
No injured Ill or suffering
Their pain was felt no more
All memories that were haunting
Erased from minds before
I didn't want to wake up from this place
That I'd just been
Only then to realise
It's not real
t'was just a dream......

Key and a Lock*

do you need me to go....?

well i never told you that i was going to leave
now you're stuck here face to face with me

tonight is the night that you suffer from all the
time it took me to recover. just a face i thought
i knew that became my new lover.

what have i been trying to accomplish?
things get blurry.

you told me you loved me
you told me you need me
you told me that you would never ever leave me

.. well what happened?

now you're stuck here to face the pain
that i kept locked deep inside my chest
in a box with a lock that only you held
the key to.

but where did it go? it was swallowed when
you took him to the room and you locked the door

now this box is here forever to stay
like you stuck deep in this game
i thought it was only you that could
save me from this pain.
but it was you
who enforced
the remourse
on this recourse
to shape a new key

..then maybe that box could be unlocked.



..well i was wrong.


you told me you loved me
you told me you need me
you told me that you would never ever leave me

now you can just sit back and watch
as i toss every photo that we ever took
into an ever lasting flame that will burn
each and every corner of those false
memories.

do you want me gone?

you're bound to this case
you wanted to fame
you came with a chain and wrapped it around my heart
the continuous tug that constricts my heart a little more
with each and every lie your lips told

well tonight is the night that this chain
breaks and i wont have to worry about unlocking the box
to release the pain that has been stored for decades

... was this not really happening?

or was this a way my mind was trying to help me cope
with the pain.

i still wont have to worry about finding a new key
because i already had it.

i look down only to find a few pills in my hand.

no one was here
no one to shape a new key
no one to even try and break the lock
but more importantly you weren't here.

there is only one way to break that lock
what have i left to hold.

i didnt't leave a note,
the door was unlocked.

The next time someone says that
someone else is skin and bones
I'll say that they don't know
what the heck they're talking about
because they haven't seen you
and the way your skin grips tightly to your
tired old bones
the way it sags in some parts
because there's barely any bone to cling on to
or how your skeleton of a body
just lies there uncomfortably on the bed that isn't your own
I can hear you crying out for home
you are the epitome of skin and bones
skin and bones
skin and bones
you are the epitome of skin and bones

But you are the strongest skin and bones I know.

I've never seen you in pain before.
Not even when you cut your finger
or fell down the stone stairs
You complained about everything and everyone else but
not once did you complain about your bones creaking
or back aching
or feet hurting
or knees shaking.
You never told me when you were sick.
I'd only find out from the medicine bottle beside your plate
or from Mom who'd say.
You never told me you were sick.
I only found out from Dad and the way
your body slowly faded every
single
day.
I found out from your headaches
your new scars
your bloodred skin in some parts
your speaking
your breathing
You struggled with your  breathing
yet you refused to be confined
because you wanted to make sure
someone would take care of me.
I can take care of myself!
I should be the one taking care of you so
why would you...
how could you...

You are the strongest skin and bones I know.

But I saw you in pain today.
I didn't think that
it would hurt me that much
to see your face white and crying
your brows knitted together
your bony hands clutching your stomach.
You didn't want me to see you so
I left the room because even in your agony
you didn't want me to watch.
I bet you were pressing the cancer down, telling it,
"I'm not going
The eldest hasn't graduated
The youngest isn't in high school yet
and I still need to teach the second to make chocolate cake."
Or maybe you were telling it,
"Stop it.
My apo* shouldn't see me like this.
If I'll go, I'll go quietly.
I know when I'm defeated.
Just stop the pain
because more than me, it's hurting them.
Stop."

You are the strongest skin and bones I know.

Lolo was a fighter.
He fought it tooth and nail.
They gave him a month
He showed them a year and a half
because he refused to go down
without a battle
without seeing the face of
the grandson he'd been waiting for.
He saw him and held him.
He was hairless and his lungs were blackened,
but he saw him and held him.
But you are a fighter, too.
In your own way.
You don't want to fight like he did
no, you don't want us to see you like that.
You fight with your eyes
with your silent love
with the way you finally let my rough lips
brush against your soft forehead today
with the way you gripped Mom's hand tightly
for the first time
with the way you let my brother clumsily kiss your eye
with the way you let us stay the whole day
even though we were kind of sort of rowdy
with the way you want to go home
with the way your lips silently
formed an amen when we prayed for you.
You never did that before.
I know you'll keep fighting like that
and I know you know when it's time to fight
and when it's time to surrender.
I don't know what's going to happen
but please promise me you'll surrender in peace
without pain
without troubles
without fear
and please, before you go
I want to tell you that

You are the strongest skin and bones I know.

Keep not your venom,
arrows, or swords;
pour them out like
rain in twilight,
and be cleansed
in the whisper of
tiny, peaceful droplets.

You are perfect
Just the way you are.
There is no better version of yourself.
You are an eternally burning star.

You have absolute worth.
You are wonderfully created.
Your value was established as a constant
When you were created.
It never changes. You are never any less valuable.

No matter what you've done.
No matter what you haven't done.
No matter how guilty you feel.
No matter what your parents told you.
No matter what your friends told you.
No matter how you feel right now.

You Are Perfect.
You are beautiful. You are infinite.

You deserve every good thing that has
ever happened to you.
You deserve every good thing that
will happen to you.
You deserve a perfect reality.

Smile at reality,
and reality will smile back at you.

Lose yourself in the rapture
  of living completely in this moment.

You are loved and you are Love.

Some say it is a naive notion to believe
that love can change the world.

Maybe you think love can't change everything,
  but it can change this moment.
And at the moment... that is everything.

Listen to life,
Right now is your chance
To turn it around,
To find life's romance.

This is your call,
Listen to your soul;
Let yourself fall
Into what you know.

This is your time,
Wherever you are,
Whatever you've done,
Let this in your heart...

Let go of worry.
Let go of your pain.
Learn to have fun,
And dance in the rain.

Love every problem,
And just look underneath...
For hiding within
Is the answer you seek.

Your suffering ends
When you choose to live;
To let life begin,
And love All That Is.


Your future thanks you...
     You just came to life.

I asked, of a sage, to give me the way;
He gave me the answer... the right words to say...

"Treat the present moment as holy,
  and holy will be the moment's present.
Treat the ones you will meet as yourself,
  then you will learn that they're heaven sent.

Treat yourself with love and respect,
  and you will soon realize that you are true Love;
Treat your heart as the door to the soul,
  and you will soon learn that You Are from Above.

Nothing in life is an accident,
There is no chance or coincidence.

All that IS has always been,
Everything is from within.

Change the way you look at things
  to change the things you look at;
Change the way you see the light
  to change yourself into that.

You Are everything You want.
  You Are everything You need.
You Are nothing that you aren't.
  You Are everything you seek.

Choose to believe,
Choose to receive,
Choose to accept
That you are what you see.

This then, will teach you,
That You have it all;
Just let your Self reach you,
And down blessings fall.

Love yourself.
  Love one another.
Love the Now.
  And look no further."