Like you better from a distance,
Where you couldn't know me.
Where I couldn't love you.
Where you couldn't have cheated,
Where I couldn't have been misleaded

So much anger
I hate him
I love him
I don't need him
But I want him
He doesn't care
I'm selfish
Hard headed
We're so much alike
We bump heads
We fight
We make love
He's mine
I'm his
We love
Feelings can't compare to him
It's like a roller coaster
We're the only ones on the ride
We stare at the sky
This love is so high
This angry, in between
Us..
When we are not together
Tells us more
Then just a simple hint
The feeling on your lips, kissing down my hips
The way your hands feel,
Exploring.
Upset without you
Smiling with you
This love is a crazy one
We both say
As we kiss each other
Goodnight ..
Because that's the only way
We can fall asleep ..
You hold me close
Squeeze me tight
I get upset
I don't like to be squeezed
You laugh
I laugh back
You smile at me
I smile back
You stare at me
So blankly
But so in love
I say what
You say nothing
That you just love me
I say it back
You kiss me
I kiss you back
And those angry feelings
Go away.
Because with you
Is when I'm the happiest.

Because talking in person is so hard for me, being in front of the only person who makes me feel so proud of ME. So when I speak I rather cry, try to hide the thoughts I hold inside, as he fills with rage and red starts to fill his eyes with anger, I try so hard, I cannot lie, but the words won't leave from the tip of my weak tongue from which I have spoken the words I love you from.

She got out the shower, she puts that little dress,
That she likes,
Partynextdoor playing in the background,
She sees herself in the mirror,
Does that little move she loves to do,
Let's the music fill her up,

Don't let the emotion drip,
I know there's times like this,
That'll end up
With scars upon your wrist.

That one song that just takes the words out of your mouth,
Like it was meant for you.
As if you wrote the song,
Or your mind controlled it.
Songs have more meaning to a person than you think.
It's the way they sing it,
It's what being said in the lyrics.
To the sounds, to the instruments,
That one song,
That you hear,
Here and there and you automatically
Remember the reason why you started to listen to that song the first time you heard it.
That one song is your savior.

I haven't smiled like this,
In so long,
Maybe weeks,
I can feel the love,
The happiness,
No sign of weak.
No pain inside of me.
I finally know the true meaning of
gods does listens.

I remember when you told me things would be different. As The prints of your palms would be on my neck. I remember when you told me that you loved me, when you did it. When those nights seem so long, so careless. As the banging on the window became louder, because the sound of a ball being hit against it, those not knowing it wasn't a ball, but rather my head. You told me that you loved me, so it was love too me. Not knowing I was visiting, the pathway to heaven sooner than I realized. Until it was too late.

Wasn't I enough? Maybe I gave you too much..
It's the way you make me feel,
All alone, even though you're right next to me.
My chest bursting,
The feeling of holding back these tears
Because you are near, I don't want you to hear.
Was I ever good enough? Was I worth it?
Was I too much?
I cared, didn't I?
I loved you, I did.

Maybe my love wasn't good enough after all.
Since you are gone.

Some things are better left unsaid,
Unknown.
As I wish I didn't know,
What I know about you and her.
It's not a secret no more,
Since the story has been told,
Kept behind closed doors,
Thought you was being faithful,
Lately you've been lying,
Dragging my heart around the floor.
I'm not as important,
As I once was to you before.
Should of kept it to yourself,
But these deadly secrets will be discovered on its own.

Must feel ashamed,
When you're only doing it,
You know,
Hurting yourself.
You lost so much weight,
How did that come about?
Oh you won't say?
I catch the clue,
As you make your way through the doors,
To let go of the food,
That you have consumed.

You took the good in me,
And destroyed me.
Broke me down into pieces,
That cannot be put together.
You took my mending soul for granted,
And left it in the cold,
You took me for granted,
When you spoke the words,
I love you.
Knowing you didn't love me so.

Insecurities will **** and is going to **** me.

Ever been so angry and not know why?
To the point where you pushed everyone aside?

You're the reason why I'm broken. The reason why everyone that comes, I push away.
If it wasn't because of your mistreating and bad habits, I would love so differently.
Because of you, I tried to be perfect.
I tried to love.
Tried to make sure you was okay, before I made sure I was.
Said sorry, for every little thing you said I did wrong.
Even when you was wrong,
My sorry's spoke.
I would never understand, why I waited so long to see your wrongs.
I was blinded by the way my heart wanted to make it work,
Another chance.
But it knew.
Yes it knew..
That you was the reason for my returning depression.
The reason why I tried killing myself, back when you were leaving.
This isn't just a feeling.
This is who I've become.
Because of you.
The same reason why I changed into someone I hope never became.
I don't know what else to say. .

Dark nights,
Fighting your sleep,
Fighting to see his face,
Body getting nervous,
It starts to breaks down,
Anxiety getting worst,
Eyes start to water,
Body starts to shake,
Trying to relax,
How long will this take!

I need strength,
Give me strength.
I cannot take this.
I cannot do this.
My words are screaming,
My chest is pounding.
I need strength.
I need it the most.

She had *** three times this week,
Because she is feeling weak.
It felt sweet,
Each time she felt loved,
Even though she knew,
It was for the moment,
She felt loved,
So it was okay,
Until she laid in bed,
In disgust,
Red drips across her wrist.

And if you must go, just know.
I gave you my whole world..

Fighting her insecurities,
So she could feel beautiful,
Once again.
She doesn't know that she's perfect,
She thinks she's not worth it.
But she's perfect,
In my eyes she's perfect,
She doesn't know it,
Because I don't say it.
Maybe if i tell her,
She wouldn't feel so weak,
Or try to be like them. .'

What if I told you I was ill?
What if this pain I am complaining about is more than just pain.
But rather cancer..
What if I kept it a secret ?
What if I had a few months left,
What if there was no more of me,
In me,
Wanting to rest,
But what if I rest and never wake up ever again?

She gives you all of her trust,
And you're abusing it right now.

She wanted him to show his heart, and and say he loved her.
He spoke the magic words,
And the same night he ****** up.
Now she wide open..

People will love you and support you when it's beneficial.

I wish I could wake up too you.
Wake up in your arms, as I crawl up in a ball and lay on my favorite spot.
Your chest.
I wish I can lay my legs in between yours, as you hold me real close,
and fall asleep to a movie that we wanted to see last night.
I wish I could hear you say goodnight,
Not through mobile.
But Rather to my face,
So I can kiss you goodnight, and fall asleep until the sunrise,
Because with you everything is alright.

If I wasn't here for a day,
How would you feel?
Would it be no different?
No affection?
Imagine me not here,
Would you still hurt me?

You are nothing like the last.
Scratch that.
You are everything like the last.


-M&J

When everything comes back to you, like a crash,
Is when you wish you didn't have to remember such painful memories that lasted longer than you wished it had.

Hiding in a dark room,
Reminding her body hurts.

The way that blade felt against her body,
She did it,
she was hurting.
She's sorry.

She's feeling so weak.
She just wants to feel beautiful, in her own skin.
Once again.
She's falling deep,
As each puff she takes,
She lets that smoke take away her tears,
That she's been trying so hard to hold in.
Feeling so unwanted,
She searches for another,
To make her feel pretty again.
Knowing that person,
That she's been going too,
Wants nothing but one thing,
She's weak.
So she gives it up anyways.
Only time she feels wanted,
Is it wrong?
She knows it.
But she's hurting.
So she lets him abuse her,
Abuse her in ways she rather not say.
The cuts, the blades,
The ***,
No feelings,
He doesn't love her,
He doesn't care.
She doesn't seem to care, she's letting her self go.
"I'm so sorry"
She says to herself,
As she takes another puff,
As he enter the fragile body.

I was never worth it,
As to him,
I felt  worthless.

Who have you become? I see a change. You're becoming so care less, not coming around more. I'm upset, I hit you up, and you're not there. Who have you become? This isn't the person I fell in love with me, that made me believe that you could of been my number one.

What if she's not doing it for attention? What if she's doing it, because she's crying out for help? ..

When you're so angry,
That you just want to cry.

Laying on his chest seems to work to help the stress.

I miss him.
Where are you.

When you have nobody to vent too,
So you go to the one person who knows you like the back of there own hands.
It had to be you.

Maybe I was foolish to fall in love with someone like you.
To let you take part of my body,
To let you see the whole me.
Or maybe I was blind?
Maybe I knew, but didn't want to believe the truth..

She asked "what's it's like to be in love?"
She said she doesn't know,
That all she men she gave her world too,
Broke her heart.

Don't leave her in a dark room
She'll let herself go.

Don't wake me up, I'm in love with the thoughts of you.

He told me everything was going to be okay,
Even though I knew it wasn't,
I believed him anyway.