Worthless, useless
Helpless, alone
Uncared-for, forgotten
Unwanted, unknown

A burden, an anchor
A cross to bear
A big obligation
You wish wasn’t there

That’s all that I am
And all I can be
I can’t pull my weight
Or make you love me

A weight on your chest
Not letting you breathe
A cloud full of rain
That you just want to leave

We are the broken ones
With wounded hearts
And corrupted lungs
But Our Battle scars
They don't define us
We define us
I define me

You took my heart for ransom
But the price was paid in tears
So give me back the prize
You've held onto all these years

You didn't earn it or deserve it
It's worth more than you'll ever see
You've abused it and misused it
Now give it back to me!

Now is the age where younger people are all
"oooh ahhh," you're gettin up there buddy
And later will be the age when they don't even ask
Better enjoy those jokes while you can

As I sit here and think about
What I should write

I think about love
I think about life

It's what's inside us
That makes us write

There could be a reason
Or it could a fight

No matter the reason
We continue to write

It's what we do best
It's part of our life

As I walk in darkness
Into the depths of black

I feel with my hands
For something to remind me

Remind of a place
To know where I am

For I am blind
And I know who I am

As I find my way
To and from

My time in darkness
Has just not begun

My senses come alive
I can hear the air

I can smell the smell
Of anything in the air

I need no help
Because who I am

I'm one of God's creatures
That's who I am

I want to **** myself
Everyday
Every hour
Every second
And yet I haven't
Because every time the thought occurs
The aftermath seems to play out in my head

I don't want to be
the acknowledgment at the beginning
of a book i'll never read
  to my sister
  to my friend
  to my lover
  gone to soon
  i wish you could read this

I don't want to be
the sad news story that everyone hears
and wishes it weren't real
  a 17 year old
  young and bright
  lots of friends
  left behind family
  greatly missed amongst us all

I don't want to break
my already broken family
even if they are breaking me
  lost a sister
  lost a cousin
  lost a daughter
  sadness engulfs them all
  two families split back to four

I want to leave
And I'll never believe
The world loves me so much
That it will stop in place
Because I take my life
But even if
It's only half the truth
This idea of the aftermath
That would occur
Should I stop my breathing
I'll keep breathing
In
Out
In
Out
Just to see the world continue turning

-r.y.s

Whenever I haunt for you
All I wanted is to be with you
Hold your little limbs
And sway next to my tough hips.

Keep me as your greatest lover
I will hold you till forever
Cradle me like your sweetest treasure
I will love you forever, That is sure.

You must not leave my lonely soul
Or else your dreams shall give you a brawl
I shall haul your fears to my heart
'Coz if you leave, I'll fall apart.

There's a front door
To the back door . . . of life
There's an upstairs
To fall down upon your past

We all are dreaming , scheming
Tyring to find a perfect life
One that's full of meaning , preening
That's devoid of strife

There's a front door
To the back door of life
There's an open window
To the closed minded lies

We are all driving way to fast
The day's become our demise
The future is just a thin piece of glass
You are the hammer in disguise

There's a front door
To the back door of life