mariana

mariana Apr 2018

him and i are like peanut butter and jelly
or bees and their honey
inseparable
him and i go together like how you like your coffee
perfect
when together,
we can come up with the most amazing things
our hands and lips and bodies
fit together like puzzle pieces
the way my hand fits perfectly in his
the feeling of him closing in on a kiss
the butterflies that go wild inside me when he pulls me in for a hug
its all so magical
and i bet a cats nine lives
that i wouldn't
couldn't
find anyone else who is like him
he's different
he understands me so well
but i haven't felt him for so long
the thought of not having physical contact with him
drives me mad
absolutely mad
i've missed him terribly
and he knows that

#5

mariana Mar 2018

love

i have met love many times before
once as a kid
it consisted of play dates and kisses on the cheek
behind the swirly slide of the playground at school
it also consisted of sharing each others recess snacks
or holding the door open for the other
once more when i was reaching the appropriate age
we'd get butterflies over surprise hugs on the staircases at school
we'd blush just over conversations with each other
but then i was told that that was far from love
love was supposed to be caring for one another
love was supposed to be having strong, affectionate, and mutual feelings for one another

man was it confusing
it made me feel lost
but then
i grew
love became more open to me
it was of telling each other secrets
love had the tendency of telling me stupid jokes
which sometimes got on my nerves
but that's what was great about love
because you could get mad
and he would still be there for you
that's what love is

love was a word
it was a feeling
but now
it's the man i can tell everything
love found me at my weakest and most desperate
but he molded me into someone who can speak clearly
who can dive deeper
and think like the waves of the pacific ocean
love shows you the ups and downs of life
while staying right there by your side
love is your best friend

#4

mariana Mar 2018

pain

either emotionally or physically
mentally or spiritually
we will all feel pain
it can come in small
or great amounts
but when it does we have
the complete choice
to fight it
or embrace it
it can be the mountains you conquer
or the bars that hold you back
whatever you choose
you'll still be
you
a human
enduring pain

#3

mariana Mar 2018

truth

the truth will always come out
no matter it's content
you cannot run from the depths of truth
because no matter where you run
and hide
and no matter how completely still and silent you stay
it will find you
and devour you like a child with candy
but you must accept fate
and deal with the outcomes
if you survive or not
truth will digest you slowly
and take you down a path you don't have control of
yet none of this would have happened in the first place
if you took truth by the hand and asked it for a dance
this is called lying
dishonesty
you spin truth around and waltz as well
truth will never be the same again
it will say
"i fully accept you"
and that's when your lies become a blanket
for truth to wrap up in when asleep

#2

mariana Mar 2018

sunshine

the light that our sun gave us
it never meant that much to me as a kid
growing up i learned it was harmful yet essential
in various ways
as a teenager i saw it as something that made my skin
darker, and gave me more freckles and moles
but now
the sunshine is different
its what makes me smile
makes me laugh
what holds my hand and kisses me ever so romantically
i love the sunshine
my sunshine, to be specific
i love my sunshine

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