Maybe I've been searching for love,
When loneliness is all I can have.

Maybe I was trying to make a smile,
When tears are falling in my eyes.

Maybe I've made you my fantasy,
When "us" can't be a reality.

Or maybe I was hoping for more,
When all I deserve was less.

-MCJ

Took my **** out
Decided to have a smoke
Come on over take a ****
Give me a shot gun
Let me get rid of the gum
Wow!! Are we going to have some fun
**** this **** is really good
Some awesome blending
The room is spinning
The high is beginning
I bet I am grinning
Not looking for an ending
Could we be sinning ?
Nah!!
I think we are winning
Pass it around
Loving all this sharing
Would you call it daring
This ****
Sure not full of seed
Believe me
This joint is so tight
Like sipping out of a straw
Drawl baby drawl
Not slowing down to a crawl
There is more where this came from
Not playing dumb
Until we go numb
Then we can say
We are true smokers
             !!

I'm messaging you again,
Though I promised I won't,  

I fought myself not to write to you again ,
But again again I lost,  

I'm writing you again after all this time,
Hoping you answer maybe this time,  

You read all my previous messages,  
Every word, every line,  

For you I have got a lot to say,  
But you got no ears to hear,  

I'm constantly trying to reconnect,  
But you care less  Everyday,  
I wrote to you things that would melt hearts,
If a stone read all that it would melt,  

At least I make a effort to reconnect someday,
Though you give no effort I'm not hopeless ,

How my words did melt a stone ,
But they didn't melt your heart yet ?  

Read them again and again,
Perhaps they melt your heart.

And you answer.....

Most people are afraid of
spiders, clowns, thunderstorms;
the usual.
But if you asked me
what my greatest fear is,
I would speak of nothing
but your name.
Because what would I do,
who would I be,
should one day
you decide that you're
over me?