For about six years,
I haven't been able to control my emotions.
For about six years,
I've struggled to wake-up in the mornings without wanting to change who I am.
For about six years,
I have given-up every single poistive thing about me
because I am hooked.
For about six years,
I thought I was cool.
For about six years,
I thought my life was riding high on "Cloud-9"
For about six years,
I've been dependent on any chemical that will alter my mind.
For about six years,
I've struggled to look at my own reflection.
For about six years,
I've made my family cry and push me away.
For about six years,
I've watched friends come and go.
For about six years,
I've been lying to the people I love.
For about six years,
My life has been nothing but a blur.

For about six years,
I've wanted to stop.

And today
will be
that
day.

Life is all about perception we believe in what we see
So come with me randy let's find the remedy
To all this chaos and animosity
Till the day we live laugh love in harmony
Because you see there ain't no harming me
But until they day out reality becomes a fantasy
Well be here on our grind turning money into the air we breathe
Don't deceive because we agree
Life is not always what it seems stay on them dreams the path will show itself
and by the time we die wed discover  happiness is wealth

My Intentions are fearless
My believes are strong
I sit here now, without a doubt
Prices of liberties
From my own chains
Were heavy and difficult to try and gain
Without sorrow or pitty
Without a second thought
I release myself from my burden and lust
You no longer control me
Not an emotion or thought
I now have forgotten your slightest touch
Good bye to you
My once every breath
Good bye to you
My heart and my ache.
In these words
I will find peace
In these words
I will be released

Hold
On
Pain
Ends

I'm holding on, I HOPE I'm not alone!

I don't know why you're so painful to me.
Breaking me down,
every time you come and go.
I'm regret to you,
a sore spot on your heart.
You only see your past when you look at me,
A reflection of the destruction your leaving caused.
Ultimate ruin in your wake.
I can never shake these shoes,
Worn Maryjanes of a girl who doesn't know how to stop loving you.
I reach for you and you pull away,
So I stopped wishing,
Learning that it never has been about me.
You called today,
6 years of absence leaving me hollow.
I don't want it,
This time I just can't.
I don't know why you're always so painful to me,
Or how I can be so forgettable.