It's not about forgetting her,
Or hating her,
Ignoring her,
It's not about not wanting her...

It's not about being rude,
To her or about her,
It's about finding to accept,
That she's not yours...

It's not about the lying,
The crying,
The betrayal,
It's not about your little broken soul...

It's not about how many girls,
You go through to get over her,
Or how it "doesn't matter" 'cause,
They're "just not her"...

It's about accepting that,
It's always going to hurt,
She's never coming back,
And being okay with that...

You learn to be okay with,
Feeling breathless when she talks,
Even though you know,
You've no right to say so...

You learn to be okay with,
Her not sparing a second glance,
Because that way she cannot tell,
How your heart is pounding fast...

You learn to be okay with,
Wanting but not getting,
And hating every soul,
That she allows touching her...

It's not about not wanting her,
Or your broken little soul,
It's all about accepting that,
She's never going to be yours...

@manauwer

Every moment I think I'm closer to the heart
And it means to know, just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But where to begin is all I need to find
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be, you're not that far?
You're the sight that turns my way
The reason that I even try
I need to find it,
I need to find you...

You're all that glimmering stars in the night
The glisten in my eyes that thrive
The hopes and happiness in me
The pride that makes all of me strive
I need to find it,
I need to find you...

You're all that relief, so hard to find
To find me through the labyrinth I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you it will be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be, you're not that far?
You're the arms that keep me from falling
The reason that I still stand and walk
I need to find it,
I need to find you…

You're the morale of my life
The truth that I want not to deny
The present that is all I want now
The courage that will help me defy
I need to find it,
I need to find you…

I’ve been feeling lost, can't find the words to say
Spending all my time stuck in yesterday
But where you are is where I want to be
Just next to you and you next to me
Oh, I need to find it,
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The sound that keeps me telling
I need to find it,
I need to find you…

You're the missing piece I need
The part of my love that I yearn
The shroud that will hide me from fear
And help me guide through all the turn
So, I need to find it,
I need to find you…
@manauwer

It was hard to tell you the truth I hid
But now I’ll not regret that I ever did…


There's nothing wrong that I won't hide or say
I’m glad I get to see you from day to day...


It would hurt to have to see you alone
Now the feelings for me you have shown…


I’ll never leave your side when you are down
Because I never want to have to see you frown...


I'm here for you whenever you are in need
Through life you made me want to proceed…


I just really want you to see
It’s with you I always want to be....
@manauwer

I want to be brought back on earth
I want to feel alive
But inside ‘m feeling like
All I want to do is die

Trying to claw my way
Back into life
So why is it for so many years
I've never found what is right

So much is so wrong and
It can’t ever change
I don't want to live this life
Feeling just the same

Filled with nothing but hate
Running through my veins
I have had nothing but sadness
And so much pain

I want it all to stop and
For me to be free
But how can I when I know that
What is missing is, well me…
@manauwer

Love is a miracle,
as sweet as it can be…
That has always tempered many minds,
and will always remain a complete mystery…
For though it is a something,
that is worth centuries old…
Thriving in the core of heart,
that can’t be purchased for either silver or gold…
But instead must be given,
of one’s own free will…
And received with no promises,
but love that it must fulfill…
And once its exchanged,
in this time honored way…
there’s nothing love can’t,
or manage to say…
No problems too great,
and no problems too small…
For love like miracle,
conquer them all…
And leaves in their place
such a feeling called peace…
that dwell just like love,
can’t help but increase…
@manauwer

few pages of life, that remained unturned...
belonging to a diary, which was never burnt...

the pages of the diary, which was almost banal...
and with the passage of time, it was left to curl...

words created in past, that is now unclear...
reminiscence of someone, who was then very dear...

few illegible words, which was for someone certain...
but with the sands of time, has been engraved in sultry curtain...

the face of the deity whom, is sure etched in my mind...
but just can't recognize, the shape of her kind...

the pain irresistible, which was en-kindled within...
for it is hard to bear, her loss from my heart therein...

beholding my feelings, which have now turned stagnant...
wish i could ever find out, who that someone was i meant...
@manauwer

Loose sheet is a part of me,
of what I think, what I feel...
its the journey of me,
of how I walk, how I kneel...
its the remembrance of past,
and the reminiscence of grief...
its the time 'm searching for me,
lost and draped in the fallen leaf...
'm broken and 'm lost,
the loose sheets are them which bind me sure...
and for the rest of me is just a body,
and 'm therein complete impure...
soiled with tears of pain stricken love,
a glimpse of words never dared to be told...
and waiting for the time to speak for itself,
loose sheets that carve of nothing but truth that hold...
so cut me open, see my heart,
you will see the legitimacy and the signs apart...
yes, it is all of me and me in pages
and this is all but a form of an art...
@manauwer