I just want you
to be happy
but sometimes
and selfishly
I want to be
your happiness

But
'happiness is a choice'
you say
and you didn't choose me

I clung onto the idea
since you made me happy
it would be the same for you

What is happiness now?
where has it gone to?
In time, society has robbed us
the real meaning of happiness

Go on your own way
and pursue your happiness
for your smile, is my smile
your laugh, is my laugh

and I'll be happy
when you find your happiness
because I love you
always have, always will

And all of a sudden
I realized that
None of this was real.
Not the late nights
Or the long days.
Not even the fights.
And even sadder
Was the moment that
I realized I didn't care.
I loved you too much
To lose you,
And needed you too much
To risk it.
So I'll keep on loving you
Even though it breaks my heart.

"I promise I'll stay"  She would say.
As she slowly walked away.
Am I just suppose to just be okay?

At night I cry myself to sleep
And pray that I forget him
All day through I masquerade
As if I don't still miss him

I think about him every night
And tears roll down my cheek
He left without so much as goodbye
Someone else's love to seek

He said he'd love me forever
Well that didn't last very long
We'd never split he told me
I guess he told me wrong

What happened to all those promises
He made along the way?
To love and cherish and hold me
And by my side to stay?

They're broken now; just like my heart
With pieces scattered around
He told me so many beautiful things
But he lied a lot I've found

Emptiness
Tucked inside
The gaping holes of
your shattered
Rib cage,
Where your heart used to lay.
And you find yourself
Cramming
Each broken piece of you
Into their old tshirt
In the hope that it can hold
You together.

The shore’s deep cobalt waters gradually give way to sand and polished stone. Outside, raindrops crash to the ground like a string of pearls ripped from a delicate necklace. They scatter loose and bring to mind a painful, ecstatic heartbeat. Each drop caresses and kisses dead branches blackened by soot and flames. I’ll gather each pearl, searching on my hands and knees in the dying light. A futile practice but an exercise in remembering. But could anything remain on naked flame as tiny embers dance in the midnight air?

I didn't mean to make your heart break.
You must believe it was a mistake.
I couldn't help but have my way,

when that
red feather boa
looked my way.

I didn't mean to let your heart break.
You must believe it was a bad day.
Please baby just don’t walk away.

how many
words will it
take to say

I didn't mean to make your heart break.