Someone has an answer
where are they and who?
I need one, don't you?

Staring out the window at the lucid storm
fingers lightly tapping the blanket,
I wonder what tonight will bring.

Dreams to inspire love?
Fears to remind me of sorrow?
Messages to guide me in hope?
Something new to try, for experience?

The block on my ideas stabs me
oh God, my life's so boring.

Moving to the floor, my back against the wall,
feet sliding along the wooden floor boards,
pen in my hand getting slippery, losing
my grip and my captive mind running too.

Thoughts begin racing, legs collapse,
pen dances on the floor, imprinting new thoughts
forever and ever, for all to see.

I only hope the future owners
don't get mad at me...

What can I say though,
the inspiration comes and goes
I just have to follow the flow.

The Only reason I hate you now
is because I loved you then.

It doesn't matter if you still
love me, because I can't take
another heart break to such a
degree that you would go to.

I wrote this for you
I wrote it all for you...

You don't know how many hours
I've wasted dreaming of you,
allitterating our times and
pouring my heart out to you.

Its all for you I promise
every bit of it because of you.

All the pain, the tears,
each smile or laugh.
Every single night in your arms,
each bruise from your ****** fist.

Don't you get it
you opened my eyes again.

Thanks for reminding me
who I am and what life is.
I wrote this for you
it's all your fault I'm like this.

The Only reason I hate you now
is because I loved you then.

Cuts and scrapes
Colors and patterns
Stars and stripes
All make me who i am.

Dash of this
Pinch of that.

Look here
Awe there
Never see another
Just like me.

All born of
Flesh and blood,
Ash and stone...

Raised with rules,
Regulations, and schools.
Good and bad
Whats wrong or right.

But we all shine
Different in our
Own light.

I found mine
Among the earth,
Where is yours?

Silence tears at my weak soul
words attack my feeble mind
ice eats my skin away - again

It's so cold here in this white place
especially to those of us with hearts of stone

Longing for inspiration
weeping for freedoms wasted
asking what went wrong - why we're here
none of it helps in the slightest

There has been no sight of sun
in at least three long years

Our loving whispers still linger
the smell of your sugary coffee
clings to me like I did to you
when they dragged me away - again

Nightmares on a rampage - eyes wide open
lucid dreams dead forever - like us

One hopeful flame and security enters
can I have no innocence ever -
have these words truly been forbidden?

As I lie awake staring at the clock
flashing 2:04 am in florescent blue
and a calender gone untouched since
June 10, 2012 yet months have passed.

I remember...

Rain pounding down on the awful roof,
wind slamming into the already cracked window,
even all the blankets around did no good.

Your words- that one phone call replays
in my mind, so do my actions with each
of my sobs, our whispers, your laughs.

The weather now the same
the soft Valentine rabbit clutched tight.

One single answer
haunts me more than anything else
****, I miss you...
God, I hate myself...

I'm probably not going to sleep
cause I'm mesmerized by the
florescent blue flashes of 2:04 am
and all the whispers of June 10, 2012...

I wanted to say yes...

Just in case you were wondering
you won a heart today.
The fact you stand out and
don't even care what people say.

The inspiration I've gained
as well as all the laughs
are dear to us - thank you.

I admire the works you create
with such tasteful words and paints.
Your passion for kindness and
living in your own light has
reminded me who I am.

No way you are normal,
that's good at this point.

Please don't ever change,
people love you
exactly this way.