The stranger has chocolate eyes
......and
...........a crooked smile...

He lost his heart a long
..... time ago
............. To a woman who lost her soul.

I wasn't looking for trouble this time
.... But
........... it found me anyway.

He called me Sweetheart, Baby
..... for a while
.......... Nothing ever lasts too long.

We thought we were butterflies
....forgetting
........... that they fly alone.

He was crazy, I knew it
.... Yet
....... That never seemed to matter.

Then one day things went
...... too far
........... when he overstepped boundaries.

He thought it was fun
... to embarrass
.......... girls like me.

Now I'm glad he's gone
.... Because
........... he stole my wings.

We view the world in blacks,
grays, and whites while you're
the one who noticed color as
you look back.

We only drink the words
that others say to us
and somehow you managed
to become each of them.

How does that work,
how were you so special?
So beautiful, so wise?

We wanted to learn
from you and truly live
and it's a shame you're gone
we merely wish to see
the world through
your bright eyes.

I never thought I could hurt you
being such a strong person,
it didn't occur to me you cared
enough that staying was an option.

Day after day here I stand
watching you stare up at me
from behind your friends laughing
and I hear all the things I
never had the guts to say.

Hold me tight, be my brightest light
come on moonlight tell me things
might be alright. I didn't try to
hurt you, I swear I didn't.

you took my heart away
when you walked to the other
tables, my mouth said just go
I wish you had heard
my heart whispering please stay.

Everyone said that it was ok
they smiled and wanted me to join,
I think it actually hurts them
when I cry. I just never noticed
you bleeding when I cut
and I never thought you could be
my knight in shining armor.

And here I am now, in the library
looking through the shelves
running my hands over the black
sharpie on the bottom of fiction,
"My Midnight Starlight Forever"

such a unique name,
only ever from you to me,
such a painful thought
tears sliding down,
oh what a sight to see.

People watch me
they ask if I'm okay.
Voices haunting making me
wish that I begged you to stay.

I didn't mean to **** us
or the person we became,
but I couldn't stand you leaving
and coming to hurt me, then
leave only to come back again.

Someone had to end the chain,
to be the red stop sign, and I
guess I hurt so bad and fell
too far to try again or again.

I love you as a friend,
I hate you as a soul,
I miss you as a love
and
I am sorry,
I forgot you as a friend...

Butterflies every time I see you
But I really don't know what to do,
My soul giggles a little bit
With you and our frieds do I even fit??

I thought you really couldnt stand me
Now I guess its jealousy I see.
Am I even worth the time,
Arent I just worthless slime?

This is all so crazy in my eyes
I am used to pain, hurt, lies,
And I wonder how I got this
Almost kind of maybe bliss.

Let me just end this here,
I like you a lot my dear...

'Twas once a beauty
In a world so cold -
A light giving way
Through clouds so bold.
I once chose love
Over that fearful life
Drama of friends killed me
So did vengeful strife.
Here I now stand
Oh, so mighty and tall
Kindness can be
But famous not at all.
To all now
My name shall be known
Madison Kuhlmann a star
More precious than gold and stone.

I have given up everything I ever had
to see you happy- just a smile, a single kiss?
I gave you tge best you've ever had
And you passed me up for someone
worse than this...

You only ever broke me, tore me down,
All I ever tried was to build you up
now we're too deep Love will have to drown.
take my sanity, take my heart
Once again I'm going down.

We were such a beautiful perfection
once before, what happened to us dear?
Was I not the missing pieces you needed
or are you simple blind
to the love surrounding you here?

You onlu ever broke me, tore me down
all I have ever tried was to build you up
now we're too deep Love will have to drown
take my sanity, take my heart
Once again I'm going down.

I thought that I could swim
if not I always thought you'd save ne
yet again i was wrong cause
you chise to walk away
to leace Happiness.

What a beautiful letdown
all I ever needed
another beautiful letdown...

You only ever broke me tore me down
all I ever tried was to build you up
now we're too deep Love will have to drown
take my sanity take my heart
Once again I'm going down

Just let me drown
just let me drown
just leave me going down
thanks for another

beautiful letdown...

You...

You are such a good actor,
I never would have guessed
that you of all people didn't
realize you were so blessed.

I didn't see how scared you are,
how weak they made you feel.
Love, I never thought of you
as someone waiting to heal.

I gave you everything I had
taught you all that I know.
Tore my heart apart for you
and you still think I'm gonna go?

You...

You seem so strong and kind
with a soul so magnificent and pure.
Like nothing can touch you
but you're broken for sure.

I am a journal... people write
their secrets in blood on me.
They become my secrets and thoughts,
hoping this will set them free.

They are so much to bare though
every day they eat me away.
Babe, I love you, your worries are safe
but they'll **** me anyway.

You...

You had so much potential
to be so much more than this.
Believe me, you still do too,
just wait Life has some bliss.