I wanna have enough friends that two people can carry the cake out when they sing happy birthday

And if I tied you down, would you stay?

her mane built out of fire

Front seat drivers talk ****,
Cause they're hip,
They talk in hushed voices but their opinions are loud.
I got no respect for you,
You make my head hurt,

I'll pretend for a little while,
That dreams are just chasing cars,
Down a road till there's a red light,

Digging through the drawrs,
Stacked neat folded thoughts,
Not my own,
It's a war were fighting,


My family thinks they're steps,
They're chairs, **** IT,
I hate the coushins people put on them,
They slide off and fall away,
I'd rather sit uncomfortable,
Than chase a pointless nothing,
At the back of my throat,

You calm me,
Nothing I could ever write,
Could make you understand a flightly bird,
Like me,

You're Jupiter,
Chosen from the rest,
A million light years away,
You hold my heart in your chest,
It's quiet inside,
Quiet inside,

A crack in the side walk,
Use to walk me to school everyday,
He never left, he never went away,
Be my crack in the side walk,
I love you, I hope you realize this,

How much of me do you not need?

Because when I offered you accepted everything willingly.

You stuffed your face with frivolity.

Selfishly gulped down my heart and with it my insecurities.

When you were finished, you gave your compliments to the chef and told me you never wanted any of it.

Shin splints, hit on vintage nightstands,
Already sore from the night before.
Lingerie spilled on the floor, lingering from one of your boy toys. It's okay expensive lip stick & high heels fix everything.

the inbox is always empty, the outbox never ending. The leafs on your sheets remind me of spring? They don't have to, but why not.
Lately Im less caring, more overbearing.

I can't get your words out of my head.

Curvature,
The way my body blends, into a hour glass,
Long torso bleeding into wide hips,
I think I'm losing my ****.
Wide shoulders,
Almost nothing fits,

He laughed,
His bright green eyes lighting up,
His choppy messy hair,
Flying up as he tilted his head back,
Staring at the ceiling,
He looked back sad,
Whispering," maybe you could've loved yourself"

Wrap me in your arms,
Grace,
If His love is an ocean,
We're all drownding

Dry ice, untiringly erratic, ghetto girls,
Claim they'll "cut you" next time they see you,
Please do.

You trend in my heart, when no one ever likes it

Jesus put me in a choke hold, it's okay if you only stand on tip toes.

Honey moon hum, humid hellos between half sucken cheeks. Hey ghost, red tail lights going north, I'll follow from afar. Out & about, God believes in you.

Water Water Water

The eggs have quite literally, never been in my basket.

I wish clenched jaws would shatter

I’d close my book, pick the prettiest font for The End. Dust to dust

I could write a book and fill it with all the suicide notes I’ve wrote.

Lifes a pair of pliers, a dog chained to a tree.
But beauty in it, there's grace for you & me.
So for now, I'll float; in this continuess river.

I like this wall between us, four feet tall. I can still see you. Id climb up it, but I know I would hit my head on the rafters. Fall off & die from laughter. So instead I'll decorate, hang beautiful poems & pictures to cover up your face. I'll watch as you slave away, putting brick after brick, laying down concrete. I wonder if I whisper, how much I love you. Would it change a thing.

I wish your sincerity would reverberate through me, bounce back and clothe you

It hasn't even been ten minutes yet,
Already outside sweatpants hanging off my hips, you can finally see the bones again,
A ciggerate between my lips so quick,
I don't have time to remember that I don't smoke, but the offer was there so why not take it, I've got more toxins in my body I can handle it, cold hands on colder concrete, I can hear the boys next store talking about me, they say I'm a broken bird in a world where I'm forced to fly,
They whisper the words pathetic, yet have never outstretched a hand to a childhood friend, who's dying, trying to believe in a God,
When every else knows she's lying, the unforgivable sin always dancing in, her brain, a mess, a wreck. Her heart, a detached chain link fence, always looking through but never reaching, and she's sick and tired of all the needless beating, the 3 am screaming, knocks on her bedroom door during the night send her reeling into terrorized wakings, remembering who's always on the otherside waiting, what did she do wrong this time, like living in the hood, but all her family thinks it's good, the way her parents raised her up. They don't know about the glass and beatings and the blood. Cause she smiles, & Yaweh smiles they use to say, but it all leads back to a scared little white girl in the suburbs, sitting on the porch step, asking God what he's doing, she cries out," lord my love for you is abundant some days I get lost in it, 1 hour of intimacy and feeling wanted, I walk away broken and daunted, sitting on a porch stoop waiting for the next train to come by, you won't see me in the morning"

I mistook, your understanding of aestheticly correctly placed words. For passion. When you were just a **** boy in the making.

Liable to sit in a boat, & row forever..

Do you have any vows to tell your woman. Hello young lover.

I brushed my teeth naked today, cleaning the wounds inside and out.

You forgot about me. Or maybe you wish you could. I can still taste myself on your fingertips. Dance with your silhouette, feel the silk sheet aftermath. Turn the light on and laminate this holy ground.

I'm laying in my brothers bed, I just needed a change of scenery. He's been dead since late September. No one even goes in his room. Like his bedroom is the coffin that we layed him to rest in.

No
     No
          No

This is the room we played games in, threw waterballoons & blasted trap music in. Where we climbed out your window into another universe. We dared to be stupid just because. He had thick brown hair, wide intimidating eyes. He would shove me off the bed, telling me to go die. Tell me one more time, I'll listen to your advice..

Harsh winds remind me of your words,
    Having negative father figures in my life,
You've shown me reality, greatful, Im not blind,

I watch in the shadows of love, rustling the leaves, never putting my foot down,
I stay off the worn down path, watching naive girls frolic, dancing, only to be let down.

I'm not bitter, I like the forest.

He loves me not

The pottery garden, we paint pots & dig pits for our brains to lay at rest after we smoked the pots that painted pretty pictures in your mind. Most everything is ashes, it's awfully beautiful in this modern age, conformed to the look of attraction young thugs in action. Green is green no matter how you got it to grow. Split it in half add another row, it use to be a garden now it's just a graveyard. You use to say how come, now all you say is why not...

Bits & pieces of pixelated, ground up species.
We have conversations, but the conversing stops, when the lighting changes & the flirting fades. Between us we have nothing but a few soiled goods, & a bottle of cheap romance.


None of this poetry means anything, because your lips won't read the words. I knew you had fell out of love, when you...stop calling. The Cheez It's no longer held the same silly value. A back seat *****, you long forgot about.

I'd spend journeys, journeys with you. Lacing up laces. Crossed & laddered. Interweaving our emotions into one big shoe box. That no one will take off the shelf.

I feel nothing but a subtle head ache, missing & wishing the acid would kick in.

Uneasiness drifts in, with the subtle lack of beauty. Drift wood, late night thoughts.
Doubt, does he love me, does he love me not.
Trying to row ashore in an already sinking ship,
Already drowning, in what. A tidal wave, or true love. My brain floats away, stuck between two rocks, I keep my heart above the water. Hoping I'll be able to breath. Anyone can leave, at any given moment. There goes my leg, down the the current.

Little boy spoke up to me even though he was about a few feet shorter, and his words grew in height and mass. Wrapped around my wrists as I calculated the displacement of the volume of velocity. The world became inertia, "how can you be born without a momma or a daddy? How can you walk across the street with no one to hold your hand? How do you grow up?" The force of the vector stopped & ticked on anyway. An unsolved mystery

The whole world had a crush on her, so what were you to do?

I wonder if you got caught or catched or just can’t

Talk to me

Pick up truck,
Pick me up,
Two bestfriends,
And a reckless driver,
2010 hits,
Would be enough to drive away the pain,
90 miles per hour,
Race death,
I looked at her,
And she looked at me,
I screamed when I die,
This is how I want it to be.

I miss forehead kisses

Waking up with him, makes waking up worth it...

And I wanna be selfish.

I watched the cow jump over the moon,
Contemplating,
Laying in the middle of the road,
Suicidal hobo,
I can hear your screaming,
From a mile away,
Static from here to there,
Everywhere inside,
My brain,
Has died,
My heart no more,
Everything fading,
Champagne ****** scene galore,
Hit a *** hole,
Right over top my body,
Id apologize,
For the damage emotionally & mentally,
You did a good deed,
How else could I leave?
I rope or a gun,
Too predictable not fun,
Everything to Hades.

I'm tired of getting on this site, and reading some other artists write, on someone else's site.

I'm content on knowing who I am, and who im not. Unopened packages and a bouquet of forget-me-nots, laying on the burned dresser,
Doors that swing open from the inside out,
Shaggy carpet.

I never had time to frame the posters,
So I'll tear them down tonight,
The uneven weight of hammer in the palm of a shakey old mans hand,
Cause he'll work until he dies,
I don't know why you love me.

Egg shells and intimate objects,
Buried beneath this castle of a home,
Drapery made of fish scales & the darkness in your eyes, that'll never fade away.

You're the only person who's said my name,
With passion behind it,
I dance to Toms Diner by DNA,
Cause it drives me crazy like Legos in martini's,
Broken by Seether reminds me of your dead,
Mom,
Beat up skater shoes & chain link fences,

Inhale exhale,
For what?
You won't be counting the heart beats in my back,
As you slide my shirt off.

Tap out, tap in, tap into me
Holy water, maple syrup
Geyser of ecstasy
*** in me

Id bat an I, but i don't want everything to be about me?

A house divided against it self, would be better; than your smile & how I'm not the reason for it,
than how I wake up with no one to tell me
        goodmorning
than looking to the heavens not knowing
If we're looking at the same sky
Swept me right of my aching feet
Cycle freaking emotions,
Interpt this into something beautiful,
I'm blind
Hate builds,
Stop humanizing poetry.

i don't have an ounce of human nature left in me

You counted the seams on my sundress,
Stopping at my hip,
The flaring floral pattern, opposite attraction,
Swirling spirals against thighs,
Fingertip lullaby,
Desire deepening in the heart of hearts,
The butterflys don't flutter,
All they do is kick,
The taste of your spit on my tongue,
As you kiss me like I'm the only one,
I'm afraid of heights, as I watched the clothes,
Flutter to the ground,
It's too late to turn back.
Swans mate for life.