I love others so much more than I love myself; it kind of disheartens me at how much I would give to others than I would ever to myself.
I wouldn't be able to stand it knowing that someone else is in pain or is hurting but when it comes down to me.

I'm fine.
- a.c

you held galaxies in your hands.
blades cut on your thigh and you bled stars.
the beating of your heart sounded a lot like the birth of planets.
and you kissed the world goodbye, giving me only the moon to remember you by.

you were the fabric of time and I swear when she left I could feel you ripple.
the tips of your fingers felt as hot as the sun.
the stares were as blinding as a solar eclipse.
and you kissed the world goodbye, giving me only the moon to remember you by.

I still remember the moon.

I don't want you to look me in the eyes because I can't look myself in them.
I get lost in my own searching for something but I can never find anything.  
I don't want you to get lost.
I wouldn't be able to sleep knowing that you can't find your way back.

I wanted to hold your hand that night.
I couldn't bare to do that to you though.
I couldn't bare to hold your hand knowing you have feelings for me and knowing that I have feelings for you and knowing that I'm ******* around with your best friend.
I couldn't bare breaking your heart the way he broke mine so long ago.
I want to stop so we can be happy but I want to feel good.
I can't hold your hand because I'm not worthy.

he had gray vans
and khakis
and a gray jumper
and brown eyes
and brown hair
and tan skin.
but all I wanted
to see on him
were those
dark blue hanes.

you told me i was a creative light in a colourless world.
you told me i was resilient.
you told me i was beautiful.

and now, even though it's been hard,
i believe you.