Don't tell them you changed

Show them

Make a living amends

That they'll never see

They cut you off

you never could forgive yourself

Because you had no remorse

The shame killed you

Hold open this gaping hole and let the world in as the lies push back with words you want to hear

Hold on to the torch of hope passed onto you from the flames running from the murderous thieves to whom we owe our name

Somewhere lost to me kindess lives on and on People giving everything until they are gone

At the end of the world
In a cold mountain rage
Where the wind howls on
Blowing the age

If you listen long enough
Perhaps for a day
You'll start to understand
What it has to say

You'll hear voices!..
Near and far
That drone on and on

From the past
From the present
And from here anon

They speak of dreams
So many dreams!
That didn't come true
From horses, from ducks,
And from humans too!

Time can't be found here
In the never fading light
Foggy and cold
All not day long
All not day night

You listen on and on
But you know!
They do say!!
The longer you listen...
the longer you stay...

And you'll stay and you'll listen
Till you forgot you need to ***
And long after that
Till you're no longer free

But what's it to you??
You weren't free hitherto ...
And besides!
This is art!
And... it's sooooooooo

dejavu

But what if I'm small?
What if I'm slow?
What if I'm not --- rolling in dough?

What if I'm fat?
What if I'm shy?
What if I don't know-- how to say goodbye?

What if I'm sick? Sick as a dog...
What if I'm about as productive as a lump on a log?

What if I care? but only about me?
Even though it doesn't show externally...

What can I do?
What can I say?
How the hell, will I be okay?

Why does it even matter?
Between dental plaque and bottoming for life. Pizza crumbs and watery rice. I am soo special and lucky but I can't feel it because I never wanted to be small until I couldn't be anymore

Why do I want to be seen?
In a world of modest women
I was the raging narcissist
In the world of god and boundries
I was the ****** *****

Why do I want to be good?
In a world where no one will know
Where truths get half baked
And justice gets served cold

Why do I want to know?
In a world without any answers
Full of people I used to know
Until I betrayed them all

I tried to be good
Then I tried to be bad
Now I'm trying not to think about it