Why is life so hard,
For one to comprehend,
Though life has three meanings,
War, hate and sin,
Life has no loving,
At least not for me,
Heartache and lifelessness is all that waits for me.

I feel nothing
I breathe nothing
I see nothing at all
I taste nothing
I love nothing
I bring nor bless nor hear
Nothing
Nothing at all
I can't love nor touch you
You realize
I realize  
I am nothing

I've seen so much,  
I've seen to much
And from the look of it
It has ruined me
Don't touch me I'll break
Don't touch me I'm fake
I've seen things
Frighten things
The things that hide in the deepest corners of your mind
To much noise
To many thoughts
To much pain
To many memories
Oh how to keep my sanity
I've seen butterflies and angels wings get torn off
I've seen deaths face there was nothing there
I wanted to put my hand in his hood and see if something was there
But I feared that when I would take my hand out nothing would be there
You cannot hurt me
For I've seen to much
In the places that I hide there is nothing much
No color
No noise
No light
Only pain and anger
I hate the way my tears taste how they run down my face
I feel nothing I'm shell of a person that once was here
If you want to see me
You cannot theres nothing there
If you want to hear me
There's only echo's in my head
And if you want to reach
To late I've fallen off the edge.

The soft pages of a book, unfolding in hand,
Welcoming, and comforting,
Daring you to take the dive and drown in the story within its pages,
Crying softly at each page of their misery,
And laughing at their jokes and irony,
But then it ends,
With you still there, waiting for the next page that will never come,
But still you sit there and wonder,
Is that it?
Is that the end?

Unspoken words
Cutting away inside
Silent screams and cries for help
In the darkness I hide
But where ever I go nothing can help
So I'm sorry for what I've become
Fake, Pathetic and worthless
So I'm sorry for what I've done
Cutting away the pain
The time draws closer for when I can go
Bit by bit I just want you to know
Even though I'm
Fake pathetic and worthless
Thanks for seeing me
Even though that was the fake me
You almost saved me from myself
I've cry for no one else
Yes even though it was just a dream
Even though it was the fake me
Thanks for loving me
I'm not worthy
The real me
But all these words turn to ash in my mouth for they are
Unspoken words
Cutting away my insides
Cutting away to the hope I hide
Love
I Hide it away
Hide away from the light

I am your friend,
I am your enemy,
I am your protector,
I am your attacker,
I tell you what you want to hear,
Then I tell you what you need to hear,
You put me in your heart then you push me away,
But do you see, you do that to me?
And all those around you,
You dream of me,
And talk to me,
You some how hold me,
You are my master,
And also my love,
But we can never be together,
Because,
You created me,
I am everything you want and everything you need,
I am your friend,
Your enemy,
Your protector,
Your attacker,
Your lover,
But we can never be together,
For I am you.

Sometimes I don't want to get better
And sometimes I don't wanna live at all
And sometimes I get angry and start hitting my head against the wall
I don't know what to do
He hates me