At the end of the day, you're the only one sleeping.

My eyes watery, your eyes closed;

My brain racing and yours doesn't know.

I slumped down in a chair, spun it around
Slid the test I took back and forth, eyes tearing up
You aren't going to eat lunch? he asks
I say no, I mean academics is more important,
But it's not like I'm studying, or even looking at my test
He looks at me concerned, then goes back to his laptop
Part of me wants to scream.
**Thacker my family is falling apart and my mom is depressed and my dad leaves all the time and I still remember the gun shot, and I can't forget the words and I am just not functioning, and now I got a stupid grade on your test and my head hurts and I want you to know I don't hate you or your class I just don't like what's happening in my life right now and I'm taking it out on you, please help me.

He said he had no idea how I got through it over the years
How I managed not to completely break down
He said it must just be I'm strong, that it must be a talent

"..well,
I suppose that all depends on who
if, indeed, anyone,
One should ask."

"I'll never leave you"
"I'll always love you"
"I don't want to hurt you"
But you did leave
And you don't love me
And it always hurts,
Everything you do hurts

Your love for me runs true -
Freely, purely, without constraint.
Who am I to stop you?
How am I to want anyone more?

I'm tired of sidestepping you.
Next time, I'll just throw my shoulder into it.