How pathetic
I need only one word to describe a story
An entire lifetime of words summed up in seconds
Sickening
These words that cross a million lips
Being condensed into one or two syllables

Today I am alone
It isn't anything I didn't expect
Your with her and I'm here thinking about you
I left your thoughts long ago
You buried me and your friends together
A new start
But a corpse left in the ground begins to rot
I'm with the earth six feet under while you bask in the sun
I'm here
I'll be here until roots fill what empty space is my heart
She'll be next to you

My mind has wandered to you again
As this pillow welcomes my empty skin I start to think
On this day of love you'll be with her
Your touch, so warm, will be with her
I wish I could hold them
All the times we had
These sleepless nights might mean something then
I was wrong to think that this husk of a human could love you
I know that
But I can't wish you happiness
Only a few dozen night have passed
All those nights that I haven't slept, enveloped by cold
Even so as I lie here freezing, knowing what I need to say
I love you
so much
Good night

At the same time reality hit me in the face I realized my world was fake
A pop-up book filled with misadventure
It's not your fault
A child needs to become an adult at some point
You just helped me open up my eyes a bit