His laugh was like a tender goodbye kiss
I can feel the echoes of those loving words
We both lived in our own world full of bliss
But he had wanted to live with the birds
The sky had always been just out of reach
And to fly he would have needed to leave
His finale goodbye was with cheeks of peach
The plane left early, leaving me to grieve
My tired eyes still wander to the sky
From when we always laughed together
To the last moments where we said goodbye
Those endless memories that last forever
I will pray for his never ending dreams
So that his brightest smile always gleams

I’m scared, something happened and my world went blank
I brawl at the bar resulting in a mad man fighting me
After that the only vision that remained was white
When I woke up I could clearly see my wife, sobbing before me
I needed to help her
I was just gonna tell her I’m okay
She started screaming and muttered the words ‘honey’ in a lost voice
It all went white again, everything… I’m so scared
There is blood coming from my mouth
It hurts
I’m so hungry
I hope my wife is okay but ever since I woke up her memory is fading
I didn’t think that such a small injury would cause so much pain
Was it infected or maybe it hit a nerve… I don’t know anymore
I don’t know much of anything anymore
It’s like the disease had turned my stomach into thorns only soothed through food
It can’t be that bad right? It was only a bite

I've become someone with a imperfect body with a destructive mind
Someone who can't look themselves in the eye let alone anyone else
This mirror is showing a me who is older yet not wiser
For when I was a child I knew how to love myself
But that is just a lost talent now
I've learned that hate is one of the better emotions
Because it has a feeling, it is hot, it is scolding
Everything else seems to just be a halfhearted notion
A half smile that we all mirror when we don't know what else to do
We gained a talent to drive others into madness with just words
And we use it when we are hostile and scared
I have gained the ability to make a mask out of a half smile and a fake laugh
In order to allow others to do the same
It is a never ending circle we all share