The lights are always on inside this building
The parking lot is never empty here.
Other white coats walk from room to room
Spreading their state-mandated cheer.
A baby screams out his first cry
Somewhere in the opposite wing:
New life and hope being born,
As I hook her up to a machine.
She fakes a smile when she looks at me,
But all hope escapes her eyes.
She puts the effort, but cannot fool
Despite how hard she tries.
She pushes forth a laugh, chokes on tears,
"Two more months," she says to me.
I feel my heart drop down to my toes:
"Let's not talk about such things."
Then past my boundaries, risking my job
I lean forth and kiss her smooth head.
I shake off the moment with a quick, distracting
"Here, let me change the sheets from your bed."
As I leave her room and walk out the door
Into the bleach and the blinding, bright lights,
I turn back to see her by the window
Just staring out into the night.
Every night she stands in silence,
Stares at the void, the stars, the moon.
But tonight I hear her whisper words:
"I guess I will be with you soon."

Listen To My Tears

These tears of a million pieces are drowning in your arms,
these tears have a million memories,
save me from self-harm,

This shadow that follows me,
never smiles, no, but I can try but I won't,
because it doesn't feel right,

Because these tears are all I have in me,
every negative thought I have somehow finds me,
It's hard to carry on hiding,
these tears are blinding,

So dissapear, I say this to myself,
I cannot take another long glance at myself,
This poison under my skin,
is the first reason for my bleeding,

Yet my heart keeps beating,
and these tears hoard the feelings,
the ones that I like to hide from you,

All I want to say is I'm sorry,
sorry for hurting me,
I am the one, I betray myself,
and I am my own personal bully,

My number one enemy, it's me thats hurting,
I wish you could see what is happening to me,
this pain is unreal and it makes me peal,
every flaw off of me,
I don't want to hurt me anymore...

That's why I stare at you,
waiting for you to notice more,
and I adore everyone, I truly love you all,
It's me I hated all along... and afterall,
I am so hateful to myself, I can't wait,

To love, to feel like hope is here,
like it's all crystal clear,
But first you need to hear,
Listen to my tears.

By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose
06/01/15
~Peace~
By LkSkyFlyRose

© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)

God, I don’t want to break,
but my bones have forgotten how to move without his puppetry
to lead them.

I am bending the wrong way- pulling muscles, twisting myself into
dances I did not learn
my feet are slipping on the floor

and you find yourself laughing because you do not catch me
you puppeteer
you mockery
you mock me
as I lifelessly move for you

I cannot break these strings you’ve attached to me
they are sewn into my heart,
my lungs,
my head
cannot think for itself anymore
as he watches me,
this mockery,

I did not want to dance for you
when I fell
but the evenings catch my shadow
moving in beat-less motions
you twist me
into your smile

and I cringe the best way
a puppet can cringe
with strings attached to my mouth
smiling only out of fear.

Under His Breath

In my dreams we have true romance,
with souls intertwined we are holding hands,
you say beautiful things to me and you listen and understand,

In real life around you I am happy,
even when I feel irritated and snappy,

You make me giggle,
and it feels like you're my best friend,
but I am so afraid that our friendship may come to an end,

I beat myself up in my head, tell myself that I wish I was dead,
but he reassures me in a magical way,
I'm only left here to be patient and wait,

I'm holding my heart,
been doing so from the start,
and I will wait till my death,
just to be under his breath.

By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose
06/01/15
~Peace~
By LkSkyFlyRose

© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)

On the tip of the mat we stood
Poised to dance
Or was it to hug
Any reason so I could hold you.
There I stood, hugging you
Then I looked down into your eyes
Your lips meeting mine
Waves of voluptuous pleasures gushing through my inner cavities
A rhapsody of passion ravaging the chambers of my soul
We stood, we sat, we laid
Lips firmly locked in passionate fervor
Is this nostalgia or novel?
A feeling like I'd never had
Or was it one long lost?
One thing is certain though,
Memories are rarely fondly kept
Like that of the night I kissed you.

I thought of you & shed a couple tears
It's painful thought to remember you're not here
Months have passed but it feels like years
  
I can't hear you laugh or see you smile
But if I had the chance , for you I'd walk miles
Even if we could only reminisce for awhile

Your life was taken but you were taken to a better place
I swear I'd do anything to see your face

**** God... Why can't you bring him back
He did a quick sixteen
Now it's over, it's a wrap
Why didn't you stop the bullet before it attached

He didn't even have a chance to bloom...
Now he's six feet deep in a cagged room