if you hit me,
or cheat on me
or hurt me in any way that breaks my heart
don't think your stuff won't be sitting out on the sidewalk
and all the doors locked
you don't get any second chances with me
especially after you break my heart

standing in the road
the cold breeze enveloping me
the autumn leaves dancing around my feet
the sun shining through the trees
onto me and the love i have for you
arms spread out like wings
and i wish i could fly
so i could get to you
the street whispers
"he will get to you soon"

i never thought i would be upset with you
but here i am

i walk with my head down
staring at the ground
i don't keep my head held high
and if i do
i stare at the walls
or something in the distance
i don't make eye contact with people
i don't look at anyone
but one day i'll learn to keep my head held high

there's that one scar on my arm
where i went too deep
it haunts me
every **** day
i wish i never had to see it again
it's there
reminding me of bad moments
if you asked me what i regret most in life
it would be that
i can't stand to see it
all i know is my first tattoo will be to cover it up
because that's not something i want to see
for the rest of my life

i guess i never understood love
the way people connect
maybe it's because i've never had it
not like i do now
past relationships are just shadows
they still lurk around every corner
and they still haunt me
not everyone will hurt you, darling
i'll need to perform an exorcism

i guess i never understood love
not until now
i am so afraid of losing you
like trees that lose their leaves in the fall
but they come back every spring
but who says people do the same
you won't come back when you leave
that's why i'm so scared
not everyone will leave, darling
i have this one chance to do everything right

i guess i never understood love
not until i was afraid you didn't love me
and you wrote stories in the palm of my hand
to put in my library of safe thoughts
and i was still scared
but i danced with everything i had in me
and it made me think of how you would feel if you lost me
and my heart hurt for you
not everyone will leave you behind, darling
i guess i'll just have to put all my trust in you

you don't understand
i have a vivid imagination
i can literally feel your touch
the ghost of you
wrapping around my broken body
but it's no fun
because you're not actually here

It rained so hard tonight
A flood of water forming huge puddles on the ground
Lightning shot through the sky
Illuminating everything in a purple glow
People yelling and running
And you don't even know what this means

But I walked out into the rain with a purpose
And the drops caressed my pale skin
I was soaked in seconds
And I could've been struck by the bolts in the stormy sky
But the only thing I could think is
"Is the ocean touching me right now?"