My heart beats slower the further you step

away from me, the distance we made

is too far to reach. And all along I thought

that a miracle could happen.

But in this I was wronged.

the mirror has shattered,

the reflection, broken

to tiny pieces of you,

and nothing else of me.

And as the days grow longer,

the severed tie

cuts through my skin

and

weakens my bones.

I wish that I could live

for a little bit more

but every step I make

takes a breath away,

and every breath

takes life.

My well has run dry.

And there is nothing else to do

but to sit and cry for

all the things I lost

For every piece that has been shattered

For every tear that I have wept.

I wish

that I could regain my composure

but this too, has been torn down.

I am just empty

and tired

weary

and numb.

And I couldn’t blame you

for I am also responsible

but you rose again like the sun

and I remained

decaying

rotting

dead

holding the shards

of the mirror you broke

even though it hurts

and digging the soil

underneath

for the burial of my heart.

A teaspoon

of coffee,

a dash

of

sugar,

and a heap of

my favorite cream.

-

But even this

tastes bland

without

a glimpse of your smile,

the sound of your voice,

and

the warmth of your love.

In this,

I am satisfied enough.

She's still walking on the same street
Still craving for the same ice cream flavor
Still reading the same book to sleep
Still watching same action movie
Still going to the park before going home
Still listening to your fave song
Still dreaming the same dream

The only thing that has changed was now she is doing all of these alone.

Now she cry herself to sleep
And wake up in the afternoon just to sleep again
Just to not have to bear with the pain

It's not easy to sail a friendship
Especially when a storm comes
And it starts to sink
What's worse than that
Is when the friend leaves you alone
Watching you drown while trying to save the ship
But you have no right to get mad
Cause you are the one who created the storm

Doctor please,
Crack open my rib cage
and let the light seep in.
Take this monster out of me.
Scrape it off my bones
and tear it out,
I can feel it growing larger
with every breath I take.
Doctor please,
this is killing me.