Today I saw you, my son
You had tears in your eyes
Visiting me with your mother
Five years old, my boy
I wanted to hold you
Then you both walked away

Now you are eleven, my son
You have grown so much
Visiting me on your own
Telling me how you missed me
How you wished I was there
Then you turned and walked away

Sixteen and almost a man
I am so proud of you
You want to be just like me
But you promise to always stay
My love is there for you, my son
Then you turned and walked away

Twenty and in your uniform
You joined the army, my son
A soldier as I used to be
Soon you will have to go
You promise you will always return
A rose on my grave, and never walk away



copyright Chris Smith 2012

I wish I knew exactly what it meant to be loved by someone who didnt have to. I care about so many, but no ones cares back.
   I feel like I am slipping, and I dont know what to do,
I will always smile, they have no idea of what I go through. I am always laughing, I save the crying for later when no one is watching.

I wish I could accept myself
I wish I could love myself
I wish I could stop caring what you think

Please don't cry
You're not alone
In this world
Feeling so alone

Come with me
Outside the window
The sun shines
Flowers still grow
Sky is blue
Day is smiling
Just for you

Never give up
There is hope
We'll find it
True friends together
Take a look
And you'll see
Beauty is outside

Then look inside
Deep into yourself
The beauty there
They call life
Starts with you


Copyright Chris Smith

Two tumblers I see
Lying on the tray

One is fraught with water
Another with poison

Water is life
Poison remedy

Both are needed
What to do?