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Why do you frown upon me?
The disgust your features hold,
I am the one who has been there,
The one who has helped you,
And now,
I am but a mere outcast,
Lost and forgotten,
Hidden in a closet so deep,
Where my greatest secret I must keep.

You force me out,
But only to tear me apart.
You don't hear my pain,
Only see the cover of a so deep and emotional book.
Am I insane!?
Am I the one who is wrong?
Am I the one who has been the judge?
And held the grudge that Towards which lucifer himself would show dismay?

The cries from you,
Emotionally pathetic.
The cries from me,
Eternal and hectic,
I am the one who is hurt!
Why do you shed tears at my pain,
And not help me through my dark and evil sin,
Which religion so heavily attacks.

I have a confession,
So deep and dark in the eyes of society,
Yet something I perceive to be so light and acceptable,
This secret the closet can no longer hold,
So of it come out I must.

#gay #happy #insecure #comingout

Oct 2014 LonelyPoet

Not Accepted

Oct 2014 LonelyPoet

Stargaria

Not Accepted

Still I have not told you,
Still the uttered words make me tremble and fall,
Into a deep coma of thoughts.
I'm not accepted,
And our friendship would die,
I love and cherish you,
But will you do the same for me?

Being gay is not a choice,
I want a family,
Can't you see!?
And a family I will have,
One, which is right for me.

You can no longer dictate my mind,
Make me feel inferior to society.
Because, I am part of it,
I make up society.
I am happy and free,
So accept it,
I am gay, as you can see.

#life #gay #society #hard #family #coming #out #acceptance #tough #choices

Oct 2014 LonelyPoet

do you ever?

Oct 2014 LonelyPoet

Jenelle

do you ever?

do you ever just sit and think to yourself, "why am I here"?
do you ever wonder what will happen if you died right at this very moment?
do you ever wonder how people's lives would've been if you weren't a part of it?
do you ever wonder if you mean something to everyone you communicate with?

well I do

do you ever wonder if everyone secretly hates you?
do you ever think of yourself as someone who serves no purpose to others?
do you ever think that no one will love you because you're just an ordinary girl/boy?

well I do

do you ever think you're an awful friend and you don't deserve friends at all?
do you ever think that you should just stop trying because nothing ever goes right?
do you ever want to leave, permanently?

**I do

Oct 2014 LonelyPoet

100,000 Thank You's"

Oct 2014 LonelyPoet

Carl Joseph Roberts

100,000 Thank You's"

100,000 Thank You's"*

One hundred thousand visits
Of my poems you have viewed
So today I take a moment
To give my thanks to you

I never knew the joy I'd find
In sharing my short rhymes
The peace I'd feel inside my heart
With each poem that I write

Sometimes I've made my readers cry
And at times I've made them laugh
I hope there's been some lessons learn
And you feel I've given back

Please know I read your poems
And each comment that you write
For me it is a special gift
When other poets say they like

One hundred thousand visits
Of my poems you have viewed
So today a take a moment
To give my thanks to you*

Carl Joseph Roberts

Thank you all so very much for reading my many poems over these past 18 months. Reaching 100,000 views was a goal of mine as a poet. I have been requested to place my work in book form and now that my first goal of 100,000 has been reached I think I am going to reach for my second goal and publish my work. It will be nice to have something to pass on to my son and hopefully grandchildren one day.