The clock said five twenty two
When the knife came out of the drawer
A girl who thought she was ahead
Suddenly found herself in the only dark space in the world

"It will never get better," she though
Nobody could ever forgive or forget
Even her own soul was ashamed
There was nothing left to live for

The dull worn down knife made a tiny sliver
And then a single drop of blood dripped down
The once off-white carpet seemed soaked from the one tiny drop

From the moment she sat in front of her bed
With a note that said "I'm sorry"
When the pen hit the floor, it seemed like every breath lasted an eternity
Her Mind spinning
Her body floating

It must have been the years of sitting in the back of the drawer
That made the knife unable to end her
Or the stars wanted to keep her
Or her tired soul wanted to save her

It took forever to get back her smile
To feel wanted to needed
And cherished and loved

The lonely girl
Wakes up to sunshine
But doesn't see a face
Laying beside her

She longs for love again
When will she find it again
Trying and trying
The race has no end

The lonely girl
Sees a beautiful peony along her walk
She picks it and smells it
Hoping she doesn't have to pick her own flowers
The rest of her life

The lonely girl comes home
A day that was rough
All she want is a love
To be waiting for her touch

The lonely girl opens
Her door that gets stuck
And walks into darkness
Reaching for the lamp, she stumbles about

The lonely girl climbs into bed late at night
A love to lay next to seems completely out of sight
"I hope that he's out there," she says to the stars
And falls asleep lonely, maybe tomorrow she'll feel right.

Dear Grammy
You are my everything
You make me smile
To be with you, I'd walk a million miles

The thought or your stew
Makes my stomach growl
Your warmth in the kitchen
Makes everyone run to the table

The thought of your embrace
I feel happy and high

The way your smile
Light up my life
I'm sad that your memory of me
Is no longer in sight

"What's your name?", you ask.
"I'm your granddaughter", I say.
Tear stream from my face
As I hide far away.
I come back, sit next to you
And your smiles astray.

I miss your fond memories
Of me and you dancing
Of us making dinner
Of us simply driving.

I know you can't remember the words that I say
But for you dear grandma
In your heart I will always stay

My heart went dry
After the first tear I shed
When you told me you were done
There's someone else, instead

My stomach is bruised
From the punches it took
When you said that you don't love me
And gave me that harsh and cold look

My mind is hollow
From the thought of you gone
Why do you hate me?
What did I do wrong?

My hands are tied tight
And will never again touch your face
I thought the words "I love you"
Would follow with a forever embrace

My whole being feels defeated
By the sight of you leaving
The exiting footprints you left
My heart has stopped beating