The season is hot
And it’s only the end of July.
I can feel the sweat
Dribble between the valley of my breast:
“Sure” just doesn’t give you the protection
It once did.
Greenhouse effect and all that.
So I sit here on this thick plush love seat
Lean back on my leopard print pillow
And thank God for artificial air.
    
© 7/31/2003

Attract what you expect,
reflect what you desire,
become what you respect,
mirror what you admire.

I was ignorant.
I didn't see the strike until it was too late.
The knife was already between shoulder blades.
And I was down on my knees begging for mercy.
You had none...

And now I can't believe;
I didn't see your narcissistic qualities.
All the signs that pointed to your cruelty.
How every word you said was meant to destroy me.
But now I can...

And I'm never coming back.
I gave you chance after chance,
to make your amends.
And when you didn't,
I had to forgive it;
and move on...

Childhood memories
More pleasant than I remembered.
Growing up
I thought they were all bad.
It’s almost laughable to realize
I had no idea how bad
Bad could be.

As a child I felt alone rejected
Only true blood could be counted upon.
With everyone else I was always
Looking over my shoulder
Not paranoid so much as sensitive
To the spirits of those around me.
I learned to follow those instincts
To survive.
Instincts that keep you safe
Even from those you love.

But at least when I was young
There were friends at school.
Someone to share the secrets with.
Who am I kidding;
I kept my secrets.
I’ve never really trusted.
Therein, of course,
Being the root of my problem.

Childhood friend have gone.
Not a one remains to talk to
Co-workers are just that.
Outside of work they don’t exist
As I don’t exist to those around me.

My epitaph will probably read,
Who was she?
I think I’ve even forgotten
How to make friends.
I don’t even bother with the effort.
Out of sight, out of mind.
I am content to be alone.
Although I wish it weren’t so.
I would open up and enjoy
If I could just remember how.
    © 7/31/2003

Tempestuous desires find me dawdling
On my dim view of reality.
I’m fighting desperately against the feelings
But I find myself attracted to your personality.
The things you say are scandalous.
I should be filled with disgrace;
Yet my heart is palpitating
To see the hunger on your face.
You whisper needs into my ear.
Your breath on my neck sends a shiver;
Which makes me more afraid I wonder
Whether you will or won’t deliver.
I can’t concentrate with the feel
Of you breathing down my neck;
My body’s turning against me
And I’m losing self-respect.
How low have you sunk when it doesn’t matter
Whether it’s friend or foe
Whose teasing touches titillate your body
Until you can’t say no.
     ©7/30/2003

I walk through the beautiful countryside
I feel the refreshing breeze:
I give God all the glory and honor
As I praise Him on bended knees

I follow the paths that man’s created
Until at some point I see;
There’s more to this world then what meets the eye.
The cross has shown that to me.

I look at the rocks and boulders
And I see how strong they are,
But I stand on a solid foundations
That is so much stronger by far.

Though at times I’m engulfed by the shadows
And it grows darker each minute by sight;
I know I’m not afraid of the shadows
For I know they are cast by the light.

As I walk each path reminds me Lord
To look with spiritual eyes;
Let me show your love and at upon
The needs I realize.

Keep my thoughts upon you Lord
To be encouraging in all I do;
Help me walk humbly to live a righteous life
And to be an example for you.
© 4/25/2015

I look at the beautiful countryside
I feel the refreshing breeze;
It's like feeling God's presence
Whispering through the trees.

It's amazing to think such a tiny seed
Could grow to be so tall;
But miracles tend to happen
When God's in charge of it all.

How can you look at a sunset
Without knowing He is real;
You can feel His presence
If for a moment you just stand still.
The beautiful brooks and rivers
Flow freely through this land;Everything is beautiful
When created by God's hand.