Those loverlike they ran away.
Such is a foul play of fondness.
Such is a psychological rebellious.
Such is a complicatarded relationshit.

When he suffer from ****** temptation
When he suffer a great lost

When he suffer from all that he do not understand deeply
But for all that he felt deeply

When he suffer, he suffer in great tension
When he suffer, I hope he shut his eyes and mind and turn away
Turn away from ****** immorality

When he suffer I hope he find strength to receive a found strength
Believing it is forgiven and under controlled

Not by his own strength but by a given free choice

To Turn Away
Turn Away

you can be my fiction
be the character in my head

be with me
inside my head

i won't go out
outside my head

there's a few plots
inside my head,

we can be together
where no one else can be
we can be together as long i live

I mediate on the worst of myself
I mediate on the worst of myself

I mediate on the worst of myself

After saying that out loud
I turn to prayful thoughts

And I pray
And I pray

And I pray

Then I found myself in lost of words
So I sing

I sing
I sing

time to sleep,
says O sleeper of the night

but its beautiful and quiet
in the night,
says O dreamer in the day

I don't want to go to bed
when i can meet nightly silence
this doesn't happen in the day

I have fallen in love with night
and i want to stay with it
every possible time,
says O dreamer in the day

go to bed,
says O sleeper of the night

(it's too late to take back my confession)
how can i live in the day any longer...
*says O dreamer in the day

We are equation

In degrees we calculate

In many we equalise

But in many we fatal

So we divide to keep it balance

Going to bed
And
Needed to sleep
And
Not wanting to sleep
And
Suffering from can't fall asleep
And
Sleeping only when the sun rise
And
Deprived of sleep
Arises from one of those
sheep
Lost in the woods
Unable to sleep

you know i wouldn’t search for a love like this
fading and longing
tiring and intensive

where could this love brings me to?

a love of sly
a love like flower die
you know i wouldn’t search for a love like this

Adjusting to the clock time, hanging upon the body fluid that flows from the ocean and sky reflecting the moon and sun of time.

No one is to young to start
keeping their Soul alive
be kept living from a lie
It is endless and it leads to destruction

"Let the world keep you and lose your soul"

You choose, you are made to have a choice of your own, a freedom to choose.

They say dreams are clouds
Evaporates
Fluffy and just nice to look at

I live a private life.
Everything I say is a private thing.

The more you know about me,
The more you don't want to know about me,
The more you don't know about me,
The more you want to know about me,

You almost know me and that is a scary thing.
Most people don't read far.
Most people won't pick me up again.

Most people think is,
Weird mystery, weird music, weird everything.

Place me on your fancy bookshelf.

There is a shape
A certain patterns
We've constructed
A system we've decided
How we should follow
And do as it is repeated

It has come and form again
A flow required
As our nature perceived
This is a cycle like endless circle

Sometimes I question
Why must we build it to have it followed
Why can't it be disform and how we formed it
And why do we do it this way

And somehow that is the only way

My heart is beating up
to something strange
Something I cannot explain

But the chemical is strong
Is beating in my heart

I wish to tell you
What it is
but its strange and the chemical is strong

Something happened but it didn't happen.
Where did it happen?

You'll be strong
You will be

After all you will go thru
You will be

You will look back
And you will believe

And I will pray
I will pray for you
In the midst of it

Baby steps
It’s not a game
It’s not a race
It’s a at your own pace
Kinda path
Relax and don’t overthink

Your validation for subjective beauty, she does not seek for any. Not conform to standard beauty, is she.  

Her beauty is seen with the eyes who appreciates it.
Her true beauty is found only by those who lives in faith and not just by sight.

I hate to part.
The only reason why I stay apart.

you've found me
i've found you

you're slipping away
away from how i used to grow up

you're still here, further away
away from now i am used to

it's been hard, i don't see you
not in everywhere
where i used to

i want you, more than i can't see you
i want to find you, here and there
everywhere from where i am now

so where are you now?
*i know dearly you're still around

We had pillow talks but we don't talk anymore

Not how we used to

Reckless behaviour, too afraid I will be wrong

Closing, you are gone

Holding myself together, lying down on bed

We don't, we dont

Made by lust
Together like dust
Never will last

i love poetry
i don't have to play to any rules
i am free
I am
I am in poetry

I am ready. Godspeed.
In labour of love, even as a professional amateur.
Feeling ambitious... Getting ready to swim for that.

stroke
by
stroke

Do, do, do, do, do,  
do, do, do, do, do, do, do,
day and night, do.

I'm poorer than my dreams.
My 99% sweat can't afford to beat $€¥¢
even if I swim for that.

Be a lovely flower
A flower than shines even in the pouring rain

Be a lovely flower
A flower that blooms and blossom
Into a beauty of pure heart

Sinners with animal desires.
Burning to get burned.
In hell with deadly sin we love.

Loneliness is painful but that lonely man could not feel any pain.
He lied to himself and it was the most painful experience.

Vulnerable strokes.
Fine lines, uneven lines, thick lines.
All my flaws and imperfection, you can see.
Yet you told me it was beautiful.

Push and pull, is that all you want to do?

I'm just a heavy object you push and pull.
The noise is LOUD, I am unclear of your kooky activity.

I sit heavily on your mind, aren't you going to crack.
Talk me up so we can laugh it off together.

Forget it, I'll just listen to my music.

If I fall...
I might fall off...

I want to be all
often it's not
I have been none
and times to some
but not even one
Once and all at period
...

Breathe, Sleep, Create, Repeat.
Breathe, Eat, Drink, Repeat.
Breathe, Love, Life, Repeat.
Breathe, People, Collaborate, Repeat.
Breathe, Live, Repeat.

I feel
I feel for sadness
I feel the lost
I feel for whatever senses that comes across

I feel that i might be feeling too much
I feel intensity
I feel wrath
I feel for most unspeakable mind

I feel that you might miss
the chance of feeling what you should feel

Once this is written
It will be gone

Every other things
All on earth
Be gone

Tell me, what should I do
To the things be gone

What then should I touch?
As they all vanished, when I touched

Nothing to hold, nothing belong

A l    
             B       e
                                G

                                        o
                                            n

                                               ....

Let me pretend for I fear the after love.
The pain that comes in two.

The pain that last, as long as love exist.

Will our pain be lovable?
Will you be able to love my pain?
Do I want to love you like myself?

Such love is a mess.
Two sinners coexist.

Why do we even trouble?

Let me pretend, for I fear unhappy ending.

The sun sure knows how to be ****.

the old is not done
and the new is here
it never ends

time will come again
when the old is new
it never ends

You have already been through it for yourself
but i have not

you are already there
but i am not

And i cannot bare to see that you're where you are
and i am still here walking on an unexpected journey

And it will be different
what is yours
will not be mine

Even though if our path may collide...

Nevertheless, I'll be here listening to your myths and tales
my ears are all attentive to yours truly

We never made it pass, our ending is always nothing.
We never had a proper goodbye and we never say hi.
In this distance, we will always be nothing even from the start.

Her heart is gold,
I am one who have received it.
It is rich and precious to my soul.

I am blessed by her wealth.

Normal as appearance would look.
Insane as inside could look.

There is a shape
A certain patterns
We've constructed
A system we've decided
How we should follow
And do as it is repeated

It has come and form again
A flow required
As our nature perceived
This is a cycle like endless circle

Sometimes I question
Why must we build it to have it followed
Why can't it be disform and how we formed it
And why do we do it this way

And somehow that is the only way

/\
I found a way out

The Only way out
You will never find in the system
Step out and you might find your way out

Overridden
It is a cycle like endless circle
It is the nature of our deepest calling
In the system that do not answer

It is shaped in phenomenon
An Intelligent Designer constructed

A choice for us to follow

Our body, not well love.
Our body dim as *****.
Our body dim to shame.
Our body so use to misuse.

Our body structure to a shape.
Our body sold to pressure and beliefs.
Our body not to our advantage.

Our body not well love.

Our body not to be mistaken,
for being taken.

Our body we will love as it is good.
Our body we do not offer, to a price we have to pay for our own body.

The pain we cannot escape.

The pain so sweet with
Love we cannot escape.

The pain held merciless has been expelled.

Love is extravagant.
To her, Love is vague.
Love is like an ocean
and she is drowning to survive.

Short but deep it isn't that hard to reach,
neither it is easy to reach.

If you must; taking a piece of me.

We all leave words in people's ear.

Leave with the best of my words and leave it, the words that no longer speak in the present.