The darkness surrounds me
It's getting so cold
I'm all alone
With no one to hold

My world is so empty
All what's left is pain
No sunshine to light my way
Just never ending rain

I drown in tears
My heart is crying
No one seems to notice
My soul is dying

A cold sharp razor

touching soft pale skin

I breaks it. Pooling blood

Like a volcano slowly erupting

Red and brow stains the pale

The pale smooth skin

It stains my hands and thigh

I keep going deeper and deeper

Relief washes over my body

The thoughts slowly disappearing

Its like I can breathe again

I take a gulp of fresh air

It fills my lungs

As if I am no longer drowning

I scream, I cut, I cry

Some days I don’t know why

But here I am

Asking for you ma’am

To help me.

To help me see

Fight for another day

Instead of slowly fading away

Without you I’d be gone

With out you feels so wrong

I need you babe

To show me the way

Who am I no one really knows
when I try to get close they ask to many questions
so I put up a mask up of lies, and hurt
hoping no one will see through my phony disguise

because no one knows I cry myself to sleep at night
hoping wishing someone will free me from my curse
I try to talk to friends but they don't understand
all except one

it's like she knows about my mask of sorrow
she see's through the lies and helps me when I'm hurt
I think she knows but I'm not really sure
but until she frees me

I put my mask on hoping one day she'll take it off me
but until then we're taking it one step at a time
together hand in hand

You went into the office
expecting the great news,
that your baby was secure
growing in your womb.
You didn't hear the heartbeat
and you didn't feel it move,
you ended up getting
the worst unexpected news.
Your child is in heaven
a angel in the sky,
filled with joy and laughter
growing as time goes by.
Your life will go on
the tears will come and go,
only time now
will heal your broken soul

I  Want Someone  Who Will
Ruin My Lipstick,
Not  My Mascara

To be honest I just want my fingertips to be familiar with your bare skin. I want to see you naked 3 AM and remember that I have you forever. I want my eyes to be on a first name basis with every inch of your body. I want the taste of your body to be imbedded in my memory

Every time that I see you forced to take a deep breath. I have to try and regulate my heartbeat. When I see you you an inaudible wow always escapes my lips. That’s how amazing you are to me. So amazing that every time that I’m graced with your presence I accidentally let my awe of you escape me

I wanted her to know I liked her

and maybe sometimes loved

so I gave her little wildflowers

the color of the dying sun

She was happy with the little signs

of my innocent affections

placing the flowers in her windows

and telling friends of my intentions

But one night I got too drunk

and I stumbled to her door

and led her in the blustery night

to a field of wildflowers on the shore

And when the sun rose on the coast

the field a burnt-orange blur

I told her I  planted them all

the first night that I kissed her

“You will get broken,
You will be bruised,
You will get burned,
You will be bitter,
You will forget how to breathe,
You will burn things,
You will bruise grounds,
You will break people,
You will breathe what you have forgotten,
You will be bitter,
You will be weak,
You will be weak,
You will be weak,
You will build up again,
You will bury the broken bones,
You will brush the bruises away,
You will breathe,
You will get better.