I'm dwelling in the catacombs of my mind
Where the bones of past me's come to be grind
Fuel for my Demons power, just temporary
But it all goes except the memory

It contains my deepest fear
But nothing draws near
As if I'm welcomed here
I see myself and it's my eyes to leer

The consequences of hate
Is a sour fate
Watching yourself become what you relate
Walking into your hells' gate

If I could just hold your hand once more

Just once more

*My heart could stop feeling so bruised and sore

I'm on a stairway to heaven
I wished for it at eleven eleven
Though it was a wish you'd figure
That it wouldn't be me to
Pull the trigger

In the darkest of times, memories light up the darkness.

My soul was my home and she was the arsonist.

It's hard to write
When its only for me

It doesn't feel right
It's an empty plea

Each word forever pasted
Just seems like my time is wasted

It's so hard to write
With this blight of grief

It's hard to write
When it's not a relief

I lie to myself more then I have to everyone.

Some come my time to write
Do I just run or take flight?
I think of all I did wrong
Why couldn't we just get along?
We fed like vultures to prey
Wearing a new mask each day
With that same sad smile
That anyone can see within a mile
Riding high on that good ****
To ***** out what I need
Because I just wanted to help you
But just help you is all you would do
For 9 months no not 10
I don't think I could ever do that again

Tremble to the cause
Far planes in my heart on pause
Lost to time and to the pain
My eyes stricken
From staring into the rain
Drip drop, I'm the sinking ship
Down into the water
I'll take a dip
And a taste of my regret
The table is set
I'm the main course
Served to my demons as
Remorse

Life is Death, but also the wake you have created.

Life is but an atom to the universally imaginative ones

The only thing I know is sad
It's all I've been given and all I've had

When happiness feels temporary
It's hard not to feel the contrary

I've got a hand full of sadness
That I dont want anymore
But I've always had this
So its tangled into my core

Woven into by bloodstream
Making life and living

Simply a dream

If there's anything that you should know
Is that I never really wanted to go
I would have used myself whole
To help you, that's the goal

Then there would be nothing left of me
So, I had to leave you see
There just wasn't enough for you
I ran out and didn't know what to do

To come up with more pieces
I made deals with Demons like car leases
To full fill your needs
Responding caringly to every plead

The cost was my happiness
That made me a mess
I never got a chance to be alone
Away from you or my phone

I buried every anger and every sadness
Which lead to my madness
You never paid no mind to me
I can do this can't you see!

I was left in the dust
You were steel and I was just the rust
You only know what what I spoke
Or that too I make a joke

You never asked about my heart
So that's why I left, because I fell apart.

Stop acting like you're in a Broadway
So listen to what I have to say
That I know what and who you are
I learned that the first day
In the the passenger seat of your car
Stop trying to play the Angel in human skin
Obviously by how ****** you are you won't win
You need to find that you with something to give
I think it'll change your will to live
Stop trying to find people to compare
Like you do when you dye your hair
Thus begins the cycle all over
You truly represent my tattooed four leaf clover

I'm cold
I'm weak
I'm alone
I'm sad
You're **perfect

God be mad that I'm disappointed
That it was you I appointed
To receive all of my guidance
Like that last dance
Anger in each step made
In the fantasy of other men to be laid
In one ear and right out the other
Chances? Really, another?
We'll see what you really are in time
If you are reborn or stuck in grime
That you secretly created
To help you seem so sated
But I know I am real
But there was a gap in the deal

My walls are my fortress, but also my personal coffin.

"We are more similar than each other will ever know."

"We quote the good, but are poetic of the bad."

Here I sip my amaretto
Sifting through what to let go
Listening to another indie band
Drink my drink, we'll see where I land
Reinvent a whole new plan
Whoever it was holding my hand
Sometimes would distort to less than human
But I fall asleep to the siren song
I let the waves rock me along
Why did it go on so long
Tasted like chronic from a ****
But that's as far as it got
Encased in fears trust is what we forgot

"I don't remember what it's like to wake up anymore."

Ghost Knight
Dressed in all white
Remnants of the twilight
Of the long fight

Fought in your head
With depression
Best served
In bed

Restless and blue
The stay of morose
Long overdue
Looking back on the dead versions
Of you

Day in and day out
This and that
With some doubt
As you try to muscle about

To stay afloat
On this rickety boat

I''m letting go for good darling
I'm sick and tired of the quarreling
You say that you love me ever so much
That you want to be with me and feel my touch

Yet you never answer your phone
you don't ever reply, you leave me feeling alone
You get mad when I then make assumptions
Then you come up with all these presumptions

You can't even follow your own word
When I call you out, you act like a coward
You come up with the same excuses
With that my trust it reduces

You are not the one I remember falling for
That one must have died crumpled on the floor
I can't see the light with us anymore
Which is unfortunate, because only you I could adore

I'm letting go for good ***
Consider myself dead and done
I was hoping for a better outcome

I can no longer love what you have become

Browsing women like a catalog
But I'm wrapped up in the fog
In the trail of destruction you left behind
You never look back so no knowledge you find
I think you need to just rewind
And learn to be kind
To yourself and all you consider a friend
Or you'll just be alone in the end

I'm the puppet, you the puppeteer
A master in how you control and steer
But the problem with being a puppet doll
Is that we don't know love at all
We simply do what you need
And hear ever plead
When we try to walk away
It's you that gets the last say
It's always I love you, said just the same
As if it's some sort of game
Of cat and mouse
But I'm a puppet, so you tightened the strings
Once you saw them you clipped my wings
Captivated by that siren song
It's okay I'll follow along

I'm nothing but shambles and the words I can't write.

"I've run out of words, It's all something you've heard."

"I sit here stitching myself back together
Wondering if this time too, it'll break
or finally last forever."

"It's at your side, that I should not have left."

"Once again, someone proved my ideal of love completely wrong."

"You are now simply a dream, so it may seem."

My thoughts always streamline
With the usual I'm fine

But I'm now merely a shell
So flawless you couldn't tell

That I'd rather give up on my soul
Than experience another hole

That'll welcome itself into my heart
Whispering
Til death do us part

I can't just simply love
Simple words mean nothing appealing
When there is an absolute depth
To how I am really feeling

I love you like the first bloom in Spring
The singing of birds
The chatter of the bugs
I love you like picnic hugs

I love you like Summer's first heat
The blazing sun and a giant pool
The sweet repeat
The charcoal grill with searing meat

I love you like the first fallen leaf of Fall
You are the crunch of the leaves beneath my toes
You are the blanket
You are the first chill breeze that tickles my nose

I love you like the first Winter snowfall
Pure white, with footprint flaws
You are the snowflake upon my finger
Unique among them all, but here with me you've come to fall

To fall with you is what I'll do
I don't love in simplicity
I love in pictures and feelings
This is just a glimpse of what you mean to me

I swear, laying on her lap was heaven on earth.

I'm wrapped up in my head
Through that forest fogged with dread
Congrats to my demons you won
I'm tired and numb

You've convinced me my fears are real
That I've lost and made a deal
Trapped in rewind
The same emotions are what I find

It's too good to be true
Now I wonder what to do
I'm angry and morose
Taking in depression like a drug overdose

I hate my own reflection
I'm always trying a new deflection
To pretend that I can't feel pain
In my forest, it begins to rain

I'll choose to die inside
I'll choke on my pride
***** what we call life
Next time, stab me with a real knife

Sunset in my heart
But I'm the dying light
To come apart
And take flight

Into my dreams
Of a fake life
With gold streams
On a bronze knife

I'm a zombie
I'm a ghost
I'm dead to me
I'm not the Host

It's amazing how I can show myself to the world,
without the fear of being hurt.

"Your voice was a sweet lulluby, such a bittersweet goodbye."

There's a void in my soul
That makes me bitter with no control
Not to anyone just to me
Disgusted in what I see

Not just what's outside of me
But everything I'm to be
Angered at every step I take
As if each second is wasted awake

I'd rather game til my eyes bleed
Or sleep like it's my only need