laura-jessica

Feb 2018

Sara Leal

To: You
From: Me

Open this letter when you feel like you have no more reason to stay alive~
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Hey! Cheer up! It's just a bad moment, a really bad one. I know you can pass through it and later on you'll see that it wasn't that bad. I do know because I also have those moments, when I just want to break down and let go everything. So I know that right now it is that bad, with all those negative thoughts inside your head, with all those voices screaming that you're in pain, that you're not needed, that you want to get away from all this. Don't do that, don't get away from it, don't let those voices get to you, it's not your time yet, you have a lot that you should fight for. You have a lot of reasons to keep going and I'm one of them as you're one for me. And remember, I'm here with you. You're not alone in this.

                                                 Sara Leal
                                                                                                 24/01/18

The second one out of some. A new series of letters dedicated to you. I hope you feel it like I did.

#letters #pain #death #reasons #suffering #depression #voices #thoughts #me #you

laura-jessica Feb 2018

cr a zy

i am i crazy out mind
because of this situation i'm in?

i feel like the walls are closing in on me,
i needed closure but not this type of it.

i can't breathe,
i can't breathe,

i'm drowning in thin clear air,
i'm panicking heavily.

hitched breathe,
shaking hands,
sweating palms,
blurred vision.

i'm screaming
i'm screaming
i'm screaming
i'm screaming.

what is?
have i lost my sanity?
am i going insane?

am i crazy out mind
because of the situation i'm in?

Feb 2018

Alessia

***** Face

My resting ***** face
My resting ***** face does not make me obnoxious
It doesn't mean that I think I'm better than everyone
In fact my resting ***** face has nothing to do with you

My resting ***** face is my face
It's what I go to so people don't talk to me
So I don't have to rehearse what I say as I'm having a conversation
It has to do with the fact that I'm not a ***** I'm just a scared little girl
Oh don't make it seem so popostirius

My face is my shield
From the tears that want to flow
So I block out the emotions
The trauma and all the hurt
I guess my brain is just lots of flowers in fields
And pretend that I'm at a high when really I feel so low

But my resting ***** face can't show you who I am
But that won't stop you from judging me
Cause that's so much easier then getting to know me
It's fine cause I don't want to know you

My resting ***** face is actually not that at all
My resting ***** face is my help me I'm dying inside face
But you won't help
At least not really
Cause you've got a resting ***** face too
I guess what they say is true
We're all just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids suicide isn't the answer

We're all dying inside but don't forget to smile for the picture
Can't let grandma know her beautiful grandkids are fading away with the wind
Please help
Cause my resting ***** face is killing me
And I can't help but want to scream
Even if u can't hear me

laura-jessica Feb 2018

fille de la lune

she was like the moon.

a bright light with imperfections
but,
like the moon she had a dark side.
it was darker then black.

it was cold.
no one liked it there so they'd only stay when it was sunny.

she didn't want to be the moon,
the girl wanted to be the sun.

everyone loved the sun, bright, happy and vibrent.

she would give anything to the sun.
but,

she was like the moon.

if you do not speak french, the title says "daughter of the moon"

Feb 2018

JA S-Mine

NoMatterWhat

I got beat
for getting a D
a nod for a C
an empty "good job" for a B
and a "that's what you should get
every day, all the time,
what do you want? A good job?"
for an A

I couldn't get your approval
After 6 years
I still can't get your approval

So I did something,
to get your attention

I drew blood.
In front of you.
You threw me another knife.
"Is it worth it?"
"Your begging for attention."
So I continued.
Until I passed out.

I woke up.
You screamed.
You slapped me.
You said that was useless.
You said I was mental.

I tried speaking up for myself.
You slapped me again.

No matter what I do.
I will never satisfy you.

wear heelies to escape your feelies. too bad my parents won't let me get any.

laura-jessica Feb 2018

why.

why do pretty girls

cut them selves

starve themselves

want to die?

because once upon a time they weren't pretty to you.
they were weren't pretty to society.

why? because we build this dumb notion of what beautiful really is.
blue eyes
blonde hair
long skinny legs
flat chest and tummy.

no

that does not makeup a beautiful person.
nor is it perfect.

i am not perfect
you are not either.

so why do we degrade eachother
if what we have under our complexion is all the same.

Feb 2018

Alessia

The Day I Met You

The day I met you
That was the day I regret most
5 years of my life waiting on you like tables
You told me you loved me
And for a moment I thought it was true
But that was nothing more than empty promises and a game to you

I gave you a chance
And you took me for granted
You made me feel worthless
When I was the most lost
I was a mess
And you only kicked me back down
I let you win cause I thought that was right

I guess the truth hurts
But what you did was much worse
You lefts cuts on my heart like the ones on my wrists
But the place you hit most you on my lips

The only thing keeping me up at night is the thought of us
And the day I met you
Because if I could go back
I would most definitely walk away from you