but it was

and still is
that first kiss
you thinking
of
me
when you gloss your lips


that broken heart
the one that
tore
you
apart

the blood they wipe
from their sleeves
while they ****
you and me

where
is
my
eglish teacher
was that history
that ripped
the
depths
from me

who are you
have you slept
with
our
mother

are your eyes
****** ing me
again

my love
could never
be
persuaded

it was never
?













...
..
.

...
..
.
it
wont
let me
like
me
i
am
and
will
make
it pay
it watches me
it splotches me
like an period
it treated me
it will pay
no pain
only
in
turuption
get it right cyber faces
tryen trace mine love
oh conveyored one
belt me in time
catch an
hoop
loop
hole
in
an
dreamers head


fantasy finds you dead love dont
ask yourself the questions
it wont
?

be
wrote
if it
had
no meaning

you can have it

it
wouldn't
?


















...
..
.

in
her
mind

he went mad
how was i supposed to act
what were we supposed to say
hello let me introduce myself
as
i have fallen in love with you
should i now apologise before
we
leave

my life story
for what
what
does
it
matter

who i was
what we have done
none
this
matters

ok
so
now what


was my apology nut dug deep enough
if
you
wanted
to know me
you don't want
to know me
or
do you

please believe me
why write
an
lie

it is only here that you may glimpse upon
the depthis
of
my
honesty

my sweetest
love for you
wanted
to
stay
?













...
..
.

that will hold me
the way
you
dont

how
selfish
of
me
to
write
for myself

was that an cry
must we be questioned
answer me with
an
question

next time
we will
under
stand
what
it
means
when she says
i
want someone
?












...
..
.

not feel you

yeah that is a double negative riddle

i will feel you


i will never

who
is an
liar

lie her
i
will
never
?













...
..
.

jaded jewellers jam
jesting junior jousts
joists joined joints
jumping jack
jill knelt
knees
knowing krista love
me now oh please
please please
queustions
relevancy
talk two
threes
under
umbrellas
virtualized venom
*******
yielding
z's
Janna jetted
?














...
..
.

ok you wanna post scripture
then block me so we can't respond
you ain't me
we never judged you
you come with words in my private box
did you think we were your girlfrien
aww you are so cute
chasing paper weights
your right I ain't your brother
we never claimed to be an preacher
we claimed to love Jesus
nobody's perfect bro
and for you to tap your fingers
and then block me so we couldn't respond
ha ha ha
how cristian is that you freak
we have returned evil for evil
we know you have another user name
probably several
you come tryn cop an feel from me and find words of your very own
well guess what buddy
let me show my age
and my belief in your face
see we may get mad at you
but we can't hate you
having an really hard time
oh yeah guess
it's my
bad
now
we
remember


we messaged you first
and said
oh Billy Graham huh
and then you wrote back some crap
about the universe
you must be in that
star BG Cult
thing

we remember you preaching
scripture
then we remember going
word
off
on
you

ok Jeff we are over crying now
we must try to control ourselves
don't ever bring the universe's devil
into
my
box
again


and we wish you luck with your
well
whatever
she is to you


sorry you couldn't accept my truth
Jesus still loves you
?















...
..
.

And
Jesus
said
unto them

I
am
the
bread

of
life

He who
comes
to
Me

shall


never hunger

and

he who
believes
in
Me

shall never thirst
?











...
..
.

hose a net hose b
they friendship ring
branded them
as
jose
?






























...
..
.

heart beans
?












...
..
.

tamp on me
did ya here that
boys
she
put
an
tamp
on me
?















...
..
.

no problem
kissing
this
one
out
it's
just
flickering
it's not just
an
flicker
its just a flicker

he picked his nose
don't worry
it's
just
a
flicker

but wait
it was suppose to be
an
flame


that strobe light
there
in
the
sky
dont
worry
its just
a
flicker
?

jewellerys jumpsuits jaded jam
grapes
of
wrath
justifying
the sweet
nest
of
yams

juggling jars jingles
mingled with
gerbils
bars

spinning me in that wheel
look mother
we
are
double jointed
jealousy she broke
three
of
my
fingers
just because
?






















...
..
.

jaded jaguar jacquard
jestures juggled
jingle ing
gestures

what
an
word

your breath
snuck
up
on
me


just kidding
?



























...
..
.

people ****
hi people
wanna
read
me
*****
word you
want me
to feel
you
to
bad
just
my
thoughts
?










...
..
.

what i will never forget





we love you









just remember
?











...
..
.

just look
at
them

gawk gawk gawk
buzzards like
chicken
hawk
one
by
three
they
multiply me

flown
am
i


drop drip drop
dripping
again
her
am
I
button

pink muffin
dance with me
she she she
she said
she
thought
i
was
an
woman


woe woe woe
man
woe
man
woe

what was he
amongst the boss
what were his boxers
doing
in
savanah
gorgia

now you've gone to far
he shouts as he flings
an
ax
**** me he screams
**** me
the black bear yawns
the butterflies giggle
let's go take
an
nap


the swan dive was dealt all the jokers
just word hawkers
?












...
..
.


just word gawkers

beth
watched

beth ate lynn
molly
ate
kate then lynn
they
all had
ecstasy
oral *******

lynn is the bark
of
an
rare tree
getting
grown on the depths
of
we

remember
k
ate
lynn
?











...
..
.

is
my
69 billionth
girlfriend
she is
the
only
girlfriend
we have ever
kissed like this
we
love
you
katelynnbeth
?
























...
..
.

Knowing what to believe
Assumptions left behind
Trying most of the time
Even when i am blind
Love shows me its sighs
You are on my mind
Now and all the time
Noise is left behind

Believe that i love you
Every breath is true
Tell me my love
Honestly
?










...
..
.

she started running
where were we going
she ran like
an
cheetah

her breath
is
beautiful
we watched her breath
it was teaching butterflies
how to be
more
than
beautiful

she stopped running
we heard
her
angelic voice
ringing golden rainbows
kiss me quick
ick
ick
ick
the echoe rang out

the sun was going down
i found myself
by
her side

we watch the sunset
we watched
as
the
stars wait

we were holding hands
before
she
said
kiss me quick

it was my imaginations
that had been running
she
knows
our love
could never
miss an lick
hurry hurry
kiss me quick
?










...
..
.

.
put me
in
her
box

we feel her wiggle ing

dare you to ask her
how
long
we are

give me
another
grudge kiss
please krista
?

















...
..
.

my
tongue
how brutal
love took me
laying with me
spiders crawling
through moonbeam
hollows
arise
star
lit
flaming lips
kiss the abyss
land me here
in
your
milky way
you sway
to me
my
arms
built to
hold you
take your
fake
lashes off
?













...
..
.

she couldn't take it
my mind
is
an
tickle monster
she put laughter
on
my
neck
here is an line to help hold up art
?
























...
..
.

smash my teeth
wisdom crushed
from
underneath
come an try
to title me
running
faster
run
me
over

my secret life
there is
no
secret life

who is this luring to me
what worm
from
hook taken


trust that we would never
devour you
this
dream world bubble



quit blowing me
my *******
learn
from
me
?


















...
..
.

what have you
nothing less

who are you
he wonders aloud
the room whispers
he has been overheard
his love was in spools
he spooked it out
what
oh
love thiefs
how dare you love
only me

what about your mother
i would never kiss her like that
how about your "father's" rose
what have you taken
me
for

ah
circumcision
of
the
mind


surely you have been blind-sided
misunderstood intentions
what does that even mean
why are you still writing me

give me an conclusion
give me nothing at all
force me in an corner
force me
not
at
all

one sided story
different
points
of
view
an push
nor an shove
less my love
?




















...
..
.

love my
Father first
After that
Take me
Home
Enjoy
Rest
let
me
?






















...
..
.

spend the day with you
let my words sit next to yours
here we arc on this
park bench
the
winter snow
breathes us in
watch it melting
bring me warm tea
she is going
to
let me
?










...
..
.

make you
go
crazy
let me
read
you
am
i
touching you
let me
?













...
..
.

grow
in
you
we will
change
from
me
to
loving you

if thats really you
let me
?

























...
..
.

whisper on you
let me
do
it
again

here
do it again
touch me
there
a
again
for me
please let me
?
















...
..
.

pale you
with my truth
guide your head
through this noose
listen
to
the
let me's

they are running
through
the breeze

battle pens drawn
mystery
colors
blue

are
violins playing on

march me to school
teach'er
me
to
read
bind me with fools
as
the
fowl
plant
the seed

mother never pretended
they were always ****** me

my flesh was there scented
in
this
hells
reality

let me close my eyes
let us begin to dream
let me clear your mind
as
we
correct this scream

back here
in
the
womb
we find it
rather
warm
they never knew
they were chewing
on
my
arm

why can't they see
if
the
third
times an charm
they had better
watch me

?



















...
..
.

taste you
with her
on
my
lips
she
wants me
he said he won't
get out of my head
i
am
that
circus game
she would
never
let
me
?










...
..
.

let him
try and write
an
well
formed
apology

no
let me try
you better not
ok
go ahead then

ok
look
never mind
looking
feel
as
you
read

if
he
offered his hand
it wasn't to smash your fingers
what do you think you know something
more than
bring
alone

we find here
in
our
calms
there is
am
mighty ocean
with roaring waves
at times we can be found
bashing
against
the
cliff side

what storm has your words calms
what shapes have you made to ellude
the
truth

i refuse to swallow my beliefs for anyone

if my words beyond the truth have ever offended you

i truley apologize

i will never apologize
for me telling
the
truth

there is but one truth

if what you believe isn't the truth
it is just another example
of
an
bogus opinion
***** word
on
your
theory
here let me
?

















...
..
.

long light bulb

grant me
his
death

the least you could do
for
me
is
let me be that
?





















...
..
.

my style

let me make my poems read like yours

your lines are so fancy and real

we like to read you and copy the way you feel

we have problems telling people what we think ... because we are idiots ...

***** word
to
you
?













...
..
.

now
can you feel
how big
this
crush
we
have on you is
did it crush you to
let me hold you
?














...
..
.

you taste
my
misery
let me
taste
what
you
let
me
make
?















...
..
.

you
would make
beautiful
snow angels
i
sayd
let me tell you
?














...
..
.

your pony tail grief
******* read me

snort ******: an bundle of sticks
stupid twits


look mother
they learned to read
now they are
busting
me

these yo-yo's
look mother
some are made just like me
where are your wounds now mother
let me write so that the readers may die
upon your occasion
drift me through your liars moons
strip me of pride for we have none
her breath will stain on you son
she has reached me here as an child
your mirrors can't smoke through me
this sand castle we breathe into
this existence is unknown
still my breath breathes
for
an
rainbow
with validity
your rains
meaning
nothing
to me
who
am
i
less you

i
am
every
being
that
has
or
will be
let me twist you
?















...
..
.

let me write again
how much i love you
how much i miss you when your gone
let me write a song for you
only the angels could sing this song
let me whisper on your neck
let my breath consume you
the way your breath
consumes me
on your
body
let
me
write
?













...
..
.

hello bellvadear
are you still bald
we seen
an
picture


of
you


this letter may seem to read









rather weird




you see
we think
you gots
man
am
i
hands


listen to my head
you are in here
with
us

we have stripped you naked
just look
at







yourself



now
i
am
naked to

don't try to touch me
you don't know me
like this
i
am




not
an
child





but





i
am






tell your husband you layrd with me naked
tell him you thought about me while putting on your *******



yes
you
tell him
all these things


see our pressure relief valve
might need to be checked
as well as your
reference
to
people guide

we seen you hiding in corners
we felt your hate behind screens
all the names you have taken
the names we have taken
draw me closer to me
what are you
being drawn
into


our user names never tried to catch any one
tell me beyond your version of learning to read
what are branded glaciers in your mind



if all in love was obvious would you still be in it

see we know your after our thoughts
is your husband an writer to
does he wash his own vehicle
has he ever got you stranded in the snow
have you eaten by candle light
does he zip your dress just right
does he write you love letters
tell me all
of
these things

tell me nothing at all
doesn't matter if your screaming
ive been past
the
point



of
catching an fall

just pretend your image wont smear
please write me an letter
titled
letter for
bellvadear
?














...
..
.

are my bullets
they pull my finger
tracers
shoot
from
thier
ears
feed
me
letters an words

they are beggard


thief style is complete
the
others
considered

me as an freak

they copy my style
and say they
are
three


ok
me myself and i

never mind
letters
an
words
?























...
..
.

whisper
on
your neck
the words
your
ears
have
longed
to hear
molly is that you


let us
say
yes dear
?









...
..
.

...
..
.


liars scalp
my tomahawk
missles cruise
my
punch
words
word
am
i's
i
am
an an
more
than
you
an
i
ain't about
liars scalps
?



...
..
.

dont listen then read
we know you wont listen to me
we really doubt you can
even read
really
really
really
doubt
you can read
your ****** bleeds
you say what is this
to me
no
it
is
not
to
me
but it is to me
it is dripping
on me
listen
your pads are on my mind
your tampons stop my nose bleeds
your scent carried me deeply
have we not explained
the dragging
of
our lips from the womb
you think your different
well your not
there
is
an
difference
when you
do more than read
all you really have to do is listen
?













...
..
.

was that me
breathing

questioning

watching you breathe
lasts for me
an
lifetime

that we be found
less than
i
am

here we have water for you
eternity has streched across broken shorelines
castles have crumbled beneath our feet


watching her dream
her soft skin penetrating me

tracing the out line of her breath
every breath she takes seduced me
i want to take her
in
my
arms

for now
we let
her
sleep

the giant in me
she
dragon's


when you hear her breathe
you to will believe
shh
listen
listen again
?


















...
..
.

we will be touching your moon soon
she leans over and kissed my cheek
my hands gripped on her wheels
we know she loves me past me
past the sentence we should have said
she loves me for all we could have been
she loves me for all that we will never be
least of all she love me
most of all she loves me
her lips enchant ing me
her breath began to trance me
my form broke from the clouds
here i find myself skirting the abyss
bells ring in my head
she swirls me here
she leaves me here
here
i
am
found
listen
for
me
?
























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.