i dreamt about her
for thousands of years  
now she’s beside me
it feels so strange
bragging about this man who kept her sane
looks like i don’t belong in her place
i only wanted to spend the rest of my life
admiring her face
she needed my attention
so she promised her feelings would change
only if i win the race
but she tied my hands
left me to die in this cage
i began to scream
thinking it’d get me out of this mind maze
then my colors started to fade
her selfishness
stopped the rain
and she wonders why
her heart is no longer green

show the real you
people won’t accept you
you will only be left
with those who believed in you
the power within you
is evolving  
enhancing
slowly expanding
the violence they injected in you
made you the monster they hide from
but you’re innocent
full of kindness
purity shines through you
they couldn’t make you one of their own
so they went and smashed you
a failure they called you
silent all these years
up to the highest hill you escaped
you got to scream
your lungs collapsed
and when you jumped
you felt free
no more harming
you get to dream
fly high my angel
you will be fine
as long as you have yourself
nothing is worth worrying about

I know that I always push you away
I know when I need you the most
I vanish
I don’t want to be an unwieldy burden
and it hurts every time you’re hurt
and yes
I’m aware I love you more than myself
but I don’t know why I keep this distance
between our glaring love
am I afraid if I love you closely
I might lose you
and never touch you again?
or am I not ready
to pour all the love that I got
until one day it won’t be enough?
or maybe I enjoy loving you from afar
so I don’t get too attached