Or maybe it was nothing
To me it could've everything
At night I wonder
What would it be like
To be six feet under
Are there anything that lies yonder
I ponder

So many things I just can explain it
All this pain I can't contain it
As long as I can say I made it
Then that's enough for me
I don't need to know what's in store for me
You see
It's better being oblivious
Then knowing something this tedious

There's this nagging feeling
Deep in my bones
Keep checking my phone
Hoping you'd reply

Do you love me
Or do you love him
Well at this point
my chances are looking slim

Can you stop leading me on
Don't do this to my heart
Just one word and I'm gone
So give me an answer, yes or no
I just want to know

I knew you so well, so well
Couldn't stop you before
I told you what I should tell
Trying to keep you out of my mind girl
But I'm in hell

I don't wanna cry
No more use in crying
Anymore
Wish I had the strength
Wish I had the strength
To knock on your door

Systematically destroying myself over something I didn't do
Mathematically doesn't make sense but what else can I do
You're through with me you're through with life
But I'm not through with you
Not then not now not ever
Thought you said we would be together
Forever
Guess that forever turned into never